hee.. got my pay le.. so good... cannot go shopping.. must save money.. heehee
today quite ok la... got ppl come service aircon... then have to wake up early.. wanted to sleep longer one.. hmm should be lazing.. cos actually i'm awake at about 9am but then keep on telling myself.. ok.. another half an hour.. another half an hour.. another half an hour.. heehee.. then drag all the way to 11.. then practise my piano after they left.. got this uncle.. who service the aircon.. ask me..
uncle:"today no school ah"
me:"oh no la graduate le"..
uncle" from ntu? nus?"
me:"no la from poly, working now"
uncle:"then no work ah?"
me:"later got class"
uncle:"o never continue study ah?"
me:"oh. studying music now?"
uncle:"wow. wat instrument?"
me: =.= my piano so big still never see... "0h piano lor(pointing to my piano)"
uncle:"then good ah.. next time can teach then can earn alot of money"
me:lazy to talk "ok la"
then after that just ignored him... he walked away also la..
then went to have teacher's class.. she says its always the same problem.. ->"you are not listening to every voicing." i think i realli find it hard.. just imagine u have to listen to four person talking at the same time and listen to everything they say.. meaning like u can repeat exactly wat they say.. how is that possible?? if anyone of you knows how to do it.. pls let me know.. then i can learn.. just have to practise and listen ba..
after that went to my student's house for lesson.. she mentioned that she's going for Outwond bound next next week.. then i remembered my OBS when i was in sec 3.. so fun.. but we didn't managed to get to do the jump in the sea.. was realli looking forward to it.. but in the end rain very heavily so never do.. there was one part very funny.. i volunteered to do a climb up.. with rope attached to me.. then climb up a very high ladder then after that stand at one point which i think its about 8 storeys high.. (well at tat time i was a very much a winner.. meaning everything also wants to show off one.. which i think still is not... :P) then i got up the instructor shouted to me.. "where are you from?" i think he was kind of expecting saying which class or which school i'm from.. but i was so scare and nervous (Standing so high) that i shouted "singapore".. so funny lor.. recalling it make me feel so embarassed.. hope no ppl actually remembered that.. then i tried Flying Fox.. it was realli very good.. and nice.. not very high.. about 3 storeys one.. very good leh.. quite nice experience.. especially you go with ur close friends.. no need to say.. i sleep with my close friend of 5 in a tent.. so nice... we also have camp fire.. singing.. then we also have this mud river to cross.. everything seems coming back to me then its just a nice feeling.. think given a chance to go now.. it would be a totally different feeling.. so fun.. so fun.. so nice.... just hope my student would just enjoy herself.. and she's goig Pulua Ubin.. well... mine is not.. in singapore dunno where la.. cannot remember also..
wonder when will i be given a chance to travel with friends.. to nice places.. be in countryside or urban.. first thing first.. save money... heehee.. then i will have money to go honeymoon.. heeheee...
i dunno how my friends view me as their friend.. when i look back to wat my life is.. i find myself with the positive and the negative things..
Positive ->
1. helpful
2. helpful
3. helpful
4. hmm.. i think it just seems to repeat itself
Negative ->
1. being too helpful (looking at the positive things)
2. proud haughty
3. talkative
4. sometimes telling bad things about ppl
5. trying to lead ppl too much
6. hmm.. think the above enough to bring me down by alot..
it realli seems to be that i'm not a good friend.. realli can't help but thinking how much hurt i have cause some of my friends being proud all these... like my friend say.. there's realli a bitchy side in everyone.. just whether u show it or hide it... think i realli try to hide it and trying to act the good person all the time.. sigh... is it just me?? or another thing that's causing it??? wonder whether my friends will feel like tat.. i know baby always say me as a leader.. too much a leader.. everything also want to be the winner.. everything also want to care.. everything also want to take control.. he makes me sees things in another way.. which slowly i'm turing not to be a leader.. very happy that he's my side telling me all these things.. cos like that i will know what kind of person i am.. but it boils to one question... -> do i live for others to see??? meaning this is my character. do i purposely act good so that ppl will come flocking to me as a friend of theirs?? or just be myself?? argh`!~!~!~! just hope the day i grow old i will have good friends by my side..
hmm.. wonder when i will stop blogging right?? never... i've always like to talk about alot of things.. for those who knows me.. i jus can't stop talking talking talking.. i love talking.. cos onli when u talk u will be able to express yourself.. i can imagine that one day if i were to lose my speech.. i will definitely be very very very sad.. extremely sad.. f**king sad.. (heehee..opps...) and realli wonder how the ppl actually can survive.. well life just goes one right?? okie.. shall blog
tml le..
tml whole day out.. night then reach home... sat and sun cannot see baby and today never talk to him cos he's in field camp.. so sad.. so maybe i just stay at home or find someone to go out.. shall find out when the day comes..
babyfen woke up at 11:28 PM
GREETINGS !