shocked. afraid.. scared... lost...
Monday, February 28, 2005
realli suddenly feel the pressure on me now.. suddenly alot of things i need to do and realli do them properly but just realising i dun hav much time.. not i'm going to die.. just that realli not much time to complete everything....
now i realli realise one have to balance work and play.. too much work not good.. too much play not good either.... so i now must put time to play.. especially to spend quality time with my beloved baby.. if not he will feel left out...
went to UK funfair and managed to win a blue cute raccoon.. heehee baby win for me one.. first try already win le... heehee.. so nice.. but we spent the rest of the tokens in waste... lazy to explain.. heehee..
things i realli need to do... well those not interested just close this site...
THINGS TO DO:
1. register for exams on wed (VCH) call and ask before going down
2. arrange my timing for my students (pris, peilin, mingming, cheryl, ram, nirmal, cordell)
3. prepare my grade 6 class for sunday (non harmony notes)
4. practise my piano (memorize at least my toccata)
5. buy Dance of the dolls
6. buy new books for LY and his sis
7. bring finger model for stud at MIDI
8. prepare stud for concert at MIDI
9. prepare progress chart
10. record everything inside notebook
well.. if u read on.. you will find alot of things are actually repeating every week.. cos i never managed to get them done properly every week.. that's why i always repeat... seems like talking also the same liao...
argh~!~! i need a secretary leh.. i dun want to be a secretary...~!~! march a good beginning of everything... pls~!~!
babyfen woke up at 11:55 PM
rain but no use..
Thursday, February 24, 2005
today had a little rain in the afternoon.. but realli no use.. cos i'm still feeling very hot... so difficult to sleep nowadays that i always on my aircon.. tonight i shall sleep without talking to baby.. went to fetch him at about 5pm.. then went back his house.. and he slept till now.. well i'm home already.. went home without realli telling him.. well at least i whisper to him in his ears...heehe... well.. he have his road march from yesterday 7pm to 5am.. and he practically sleep and walk at the same time.. Zui Gao Jin Jie le.. heehe (the highest skills achieved le).. .. so he's very tired... so i went home first...
tml he's going to report at CCK (chua chu kang).. first day after sispec life.. have to go through another 10 weeks of training i think.. and he's being posted to be MP (military police)... well just heard something not good from my kor.. hope it doesn't happen to him... well i think wont one.. cos he's friendly ma... heehee.. surprise awaits and hope i can wake up early to surprise him.. heehee...
today nothing much.. practise for my lessons.. have a little bit of improvment but not enough cos my exams are nearing.. oh ya.. have to register for exams.. nearly forgot.. must remember if forgot then die le.. if forgot hor.. i sure kena scold by alot of ppl one.. just hope i will remember ba... or maybe monday then go down to register or wat lor.. hmmm.. think i'll mail it tml ba... if not consider late le...
tml got long day... ah~!~! baby's army friends going to marche for dinner... but i can't go.. have to teach till 9pm.. so sad sia..... cannot change class cos i always do that very often.. so no choice have to teach.. maybe just pray that my student call to cancel class lor.. hheehee... baby wont be going if i'm not going.. well he don't want to be alone.. but if in the end he goes i also wont blame him one la... heeheee....
saturaday going picnic~!~! heehee must think of wat to prepare... lalalalaa... so nice.. but hope i can go.. cos i finish class at 2.30pm like that.. argh~!~! always is the class that makes me so regret tat i cannot go to places i want to.... see how ba.. must know how to balance work and play... ^^ v
babyfen woke up at 11:46 PM
another day~!
another day passed... another day that i'm tired.. another day that draws nearer to my exams... another day that i've handled annoying stuff...
today started lesson at 10am.. not a very good one.. cos the first thing i stepped into my student house.. i had this conversation with his mom:
His Mom: "eh your friend also teach piano right? wat is her charges ah?"
me: "Should be about the same"
His Mom: "o... same ah.. then she can teach right?? cos i'm thinking of letting my younger son to learn also, and i want to change teacher."
me: (thinking... sianz.. must be something not good) "i can help you ask her whether she's free or not."
His Mom: "ok.. see how la"
so sianz to hear this kind of thing.. first.. it implies i'm not good at teaching his son... second... it implies that she doesn't like me... well.. i dun blame anyone.. only blame myself for letting this kind of things to happen... so if she realli wants to change.. ok lor.. anything i can do??? dun think so....
after that my new student called to arrange class and want to start tml.. but i can't make it.. so i squeezed it into today's slot at 3 then have to go back to yishun at 4.30pm... well.. the new student quite ok.. but the mom thinks her daughter very good.. in actual fact.. ok onli lor.. or maybe i too strict or demanding ba.. then another class.. my student didn't do homework and didn't revised work.. well she's in the famous girls school.. raffles girls... so very busy one.. then she's skipping class next week cos she got exams... students poor thing... after that went to Yew Tee for class... finish at about 9.30pm... drove back home and my family were waiting for me to "Lou Yu Sheng" today last day of chinese new year ma... they actually eat dinner le.. but they purposely buy another Yu Sheng so i can eat... so nice leh... and its my dad idea.. he's always the best to me.. heehee.. dun work too hard o... he's very stress nowadays cos of work..just hope everything turns out well ba..
then now very sleepy but dun realli want to sleep.. cos my mind keep on thinking of doing something.. but realli very tired... so think after this i'll sleep ba.. tml still have my torture class and i have not prepare properly yet....
tml baby would be out of SISPEC~!~!~! meaning he no need go back tekong le.. (not confirmed la)... praying the best for him... heheeehee... so going to fetch him and going out at night... eat or maybe Kbox.. heehee... then friday to sunday.. work again.. argh~!~!~! sianz la... work work work.. when do ppl can stop working??? friday O'levels results would be out le.... baby's sis taking her results... dun worry too much o.. sure will get the results u expect one... ^^v
babyfen woke up at 12:52 AM
Project started~!
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
heehee.. started on a new project.. heehee something to give ppl... have to be ready by july... hope i can finish it soon.. well its kinda of small scale for this project.. so hope to finish fast and start on a new one.. heehee.....well cannot say wat it is... when i finish the project then show u all ba...
today class still quite ok.. met up with my colleage and went to have lunch together at BK...then went to music school.. waited for a while for the person to open the door... then went to play some duets with my colleage.. then after that started teaching.. when i started teaching i was very sleepy... then i asked my friend to help me buy some drinks from coffeebean to make me awake. it does help a bit.. cos after drinking it i was much more awake.. should i say.. very awake and dun realli feel tired... i dun realli like to drink coffee.. but today realli no choice... after class at about 5.30pm.. slack a bit at the music school.. then after that went to my next class at woodlands... i walked pass the UK funfair.. wonder anyone went there already???? its kinda of scary looking at the 360 degrees turning... so scary sia... might be going on this sat.. but wonder if i have the courage to sit the rides.. maybe i end up riding the merry-go-round better.. heheee... come to think of it.. i've sit merry-go-round once onli... think a bit too paiseh to sit such a kiddy ride.. i still remember last time clarke quay have one double storey one.. nice leh.. but i never go sit... cos nobody to go with me and its kinda of childish... but think it would be quite fun ba....heehee
tml got class.. then have to remember to buy tape to record baby's show... the ruien show on channel 8 9pm.. quite nice.. funny and nice.. and so many pretty girls... so envy sia.. actress always look pretty one la.... heehee...
k..now gotta go do my project le... i'll certainly remember to show it when its done.. but can only wait till july o...~!~! heehee.... cos its a secret project.. heeheehee... ^^
babyfen woke up at 10:45 PM
pics finally...
Monday, February 21, 2005
heehee.. sunddenly have the mood to post some pictures.. so did a small compliation... eh... the flower or should i say plant is baby gave me on Vday one... well its growing quite well..then the bead have words craved on it.. it says "Ai Ni Yi Bei Zi" (Love you for one lifetime)... eh.. something like tat translating to eng... heehee... enjoy and will post some when i feel like.. heehee.. some of the pictures are taken at Jurong Hill Top Restaurant on pre Vday celebration one.. heehee one of it is a not ready prepared photo of baby.. i find it so adorable that i can't resist but put it up.. heehee...
babyfen woke up at 11:40 PM
work woRK WORK~!~!
kind of sianz like every day also have to work.. then baby have few outings this coming week.. but i can't go~!~!~! so sad.... they going to eat marche leh... then if i never go.. baby maybe dun want go.. so sad... so sad...~!~! SAD~!~!~! :(
now tuesday also have to work le... a bit sianz.. but this one no choice cos is music school one... then got new students but no slot to give them.. so still thinking whether to sacrifice weekends... so sianz....
nowadays not much interesting things to blog about.. talk too much about my students also sianz...
wed is last day of new year le.. then my family eating steamboat at home... and i can't eat~!~!~!~! sianz... work again... students can't have lessons in the day.. most of them want night class or evening class.. so practically every day evening i also gonez.. onli on thursday... its my practise day.. jst hope it would stay that way also... aiya...
relationship:
1. is peaceful relationship or those very romantic relationship better???
2. is u love him/her more or the other way round better???
3. is u give more or take more better???
4. is waiting for someone or finding someone better???
5. is quarrel or no quarrel better???
6. is pretty or not pretty better???
7. is handsome or not handsome better???
above questions for realli very difficult to answer and i always tend to think alot about them... as in realli must have the good sides or everything??? or must have bad things to compliment it??? but i'm contented and happy, fortunate to have someone like baby to dote on me... but i think i bully him too much le la.. heheee... sorry o....
babyfen woke up at 11:00 PM
Pray pray~!
Friday, February 18, 2005
pray that baby dun get guard duty tml.. so i can see him... if not... so sad.... ang pow taken...but bills is here.. so have to pay alot of money.. so sianz...
realli need help in my things now.. so should i say life.... so lazy to do anything serious.. so went to finish up my cross stitch..which started half year ago??? hahahaha.. so stupid right.. but its a large scale one la... heehee.. hope can finish by march.. should be able to if i work hard on it...
well think its realli me that i have to change.. so lazy so lousy.... always dun feel like doing much at home.. then go out sure alot of things.. thinking here and there that i should do.. but once at home... all the things i think of is like gonezzz... y all.. got curse ah?? sianz....
later got class from 2.30 to 9 like that...so long and so sianz... but when teaching its ok.. its only thinking have to work so long its like...argh~!~!~! oh ya.. have to take registration forms for my students.. then have to register myself for exams.... think i'll do it next mon or tues.. just hope i got mood to go down to VCH ba...
sometimes jst can't help wonder.. is there realli anyone in this world who does not need to work at all but still got money to spend? as in our age la...not as in children la....they have to study also.. so counted as "working" ba... so sianz... just hope someday i can no need to work so hard but earn alot of money.. hahahha should be in my dreams la..
yesterday TOTO 8 PPL WON~!~!~! argh~!~! one person 1.2 million like that... but its NOT ME~!~!~!~ not even $20 i won.. so sianz... realli think i'm not fated to buy TOTO or 4D or anything at all... but congrats to those who won.. they must be very happy from yesterday till now.... good sia...
pray everything would turns out just fine for me...
babyfen woke up at 12:00 PM
Sun Sun go Away...~!~!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
so freaking hot now... realli cannot tahan sia.. later still have to go out to teach... argh~!~! sun pls go away and let rain come a few hours can???
just finish making a belated V day present for baby.. heehee it cost $2 onli but priceless for its value.. in a way is ask anyone to buy.. they also dunno wan... heheee... well.. will not post the present up heree... cos ppl will laugh when they look at it.. and my plant.. which baby gave me (the new plant with words on it).. has grown out.. heehe.e. so happy... eh.. think about 4 days onli.. the growth still quite ok la... hehee.. wanted to use 7up instead of water... for fun onli la... but never scare it die... heheee..
sianz.. later still have to go out... so sianz...
just let me note down the things i need to prepare.. ppl dun read if u are not interested.. just dun grumble i type rubbish
1. CD on instruments for Jon and Joyce
2. Tsunami for Jon and JOyce
3. Twinkle Twinkle little stars variation for Jon n Joyce
4. Fees table for Amanda
5. Worksheet for Cordell
6. Take G4 scales book from Victoria and lend Andrea
7. Prepare Harmony for Jon n Joyce (Imperfect Cadence)
8. Prepare Harmony for Pris (Tierce di picardi)
9. Teach tonic triads for Wei Ern
10. Find books for Aloy
11. G1 scales for Jefferson
12. Alex... think of some easy songs for him to play..
13. Go music essentials to buy dance of the dolls
14. Bring G5 external pieces for Victoria
15. Sight Reading for Victoria
16. Minuet in G Nirmal
wonder i left out anything else??
babyfen woke up at 3:41 PM
Hard work starts now~!~!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
everything so fast over le... chinese new year (not exactly, but the holidays are) vday... and no more holiday coming le.. well the others is very normal le la... its realli considered a new year le.. have to work extra hard for my future le...
considering from chu xi till yesterday.. i was out whole day... so didn't really have much time to do my stuffs at home... yesterday slept late while waiting for baby to call me... but in the end i fell alseep before he called... so i was in dreaming mood when i pick up the phone... didn't realli talk much.. so sad... heehee few more occasions to celebrate is My birthday.. our 5 years annivesary and his birthday... already planned wat to do during the annivesary le.. now is only must find somewhere nice... heehee... this year ang pow haven count yet.. later go count... heehee hope got enough maybe can get my piano... dream piano..
babyfen woke up at 2:32 PM
Monday is tml --> break~!
Sunday, February 06, 2005
yeah tml monday le.. meeting baby at night when he book out.. planning to go watch Constantine one.. but monday no show so not going.. most prob not going any where also ba.. see how first.. but before i can meet him.. i have 6 classe~!~! so many and sure very tiring one.. panda again..
just finish morning and noon lessons.. later still have night class... wonder why students want to learn piano but have no initiative of practising and completing their work.. think they thought their parents open gold mine one.. then i shall be the one collection all the gold.. heheee.. no la.. but i dun like to teach students who have so many excuses when ask them to do their work and practise... so sometimes might as well dun teach them.. dun waste our time.. sianz...
now very sleepy.. but not intending to sleep.. cos wait more sleepy.. i admit that i will be in a very easily agitated mood when i'm sleepy.. so anyone who see me very sleepy next time.. dun come and disturb me or u will be in big trouble...
from tuesday to sunday.. i'm taking break~!~! so good.. heehee.. not teaching at all and not having lessons at all... good leh... then i can rest well have to prepare my students things also.. provided i do that.. heehee
as for the webby that was being attached by the stupid jesus thing... well its kind of not my fault or any virus fault.. i heard is that singapore server forums are being attacked by that.. someone hack into it and change i think... cos one of the forums on the korean girl who acted My Sassy Girl also kena... stupid la.. these ppl... just hope when baby comes back he's able to reload the forum thing again..
new year le.. so fast.. didn't realli do any spring cleaning in my room.. while other rooms have la.. as in my parents took care of the living room.. my bros their own and mine.. never realli clean.. cos before that i got clean ma.. as in quite regularly... later mop the floor.. then after that packed my cupboard should be ok le.. have to wash toilet also..
heee.. didn't realli wanted to buy any clothes this year.. but in the end i got quite a lot..
1. one jeans
2. one pants
3. 2 razor back tops (one black and one yellw)
4. one top (dunno how to describe)
5. one bareback shirt (pink colour one)
6. one tube top (brown)
7. one white skirt
heehee.. quite alot right.. like that no need to worry dun have clothes to wear from tuesday to sat.. heehee... cos everyday i'm going out.. so fun.. and nice... and ANG POWS~!~! talking about ang pow.. i got my first ang pow le.. early right?? its from my student's parents one.. very genoursly.. quite alot.. wont disclosed how much.. heehee...
RELATIONSHIP:
wat does it realli means to you??
sometimes i will wonder how does it work for two ppl... becos both of u like each other? becos both of u are finding companion? becos both of you are together out of habit? becos both of us wants to find challenge? or wat more??
read from my friend's blog that she mention something about the relationship duration.. it seems that as time goes by... each other got use to each other accompany so they stay on together.. but does that means the love is no more stronger than before?? i also dunno.. but i think relationship is very difficult to maintain as you have to accomdate to each other.. not as in change for ur partner.. but at least try to accept them as wat they are... read this quote somewhere.. which i think its very nice...
we should not learn to love a perfect person, we should love an imperfect person perfectly..
hmm.. something like that la.. cannot remember word for word.. but saying about loving an imperfect person perfectly.. that is just so nice.. hehee.e...
well.. i onli know we should treasure everyone around us.. especially the ones you love and who loves you too...
*baby must treasure me ah.*. heehee
babyfen woke up at 3:24 PM
WTF~!~! SHIT~! FU*K~!~! JINX~!~! HELP~~!~!
Friday, February 04, 2005
well i just open my explorer and my homepage is baby's webby.. then got this stupid website showing wat jesus thingy... then i check everything related to baby's webby.. like fen.akababy.net or others.. all also like that... sure got virus one.. stupid sia this ppl.. we are just trying to post something not important at all.. wonder why must they hack the account... shit~!~! f**k them sia... and i wonder whether is it my fault that my com got virus then he kena?? shit la... i also dunno wat happen sia.. any knows?? pls help...~!~!~! stupid assholes... pls dun hack ppl's webby... nothing better to do.. go and die la~!~!.... ..!..
angry and pissed off by these computer stupid assholes.. idiot~!~! morons~!~! watever i can curse them...~!~!~
babyfen woke up at 10:43 PM
Feb is here.. I'm not missing... ^^v
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
heee february lor.. so fast sia.. think this year realli pass by very fast.. is the world turning faster??? maybe i think.. i'm not missing these few days.. just nothing much to blog about so never blog lor.. lazy also la... these few days went out with baby.. hmm.. should i say sat and sun onli.. heehee
baby booked out on sat evening like that.. i was late so meet him at tampines for dinner.. decided to eat Ajisen Ramen... so delicious.. but hor i think hungry over le.. then cannot finish my things.. heehee.. then hor.. tampines mall so many ppl sia... we step inside already then both of us was like..."eh eat already we go bugis okie??" heehee so decided to quick quick eat and go off.. then after that went bugis to buy our new year clothes... found a top for myself.. and poor tired hao hao was not realli keen in trying in clothes.. and i was nagging him saying he onli left that day to shop onli.. so he bo bian lor.. then wanted to go home le.. without any jeans bought at that time, which he wants to find more.. then we saw TOPMAN.. yup.. the one in Parco Bugis Junction.. at that time already about 9.45pm.. so we just go in and see lor.. then he found a jeans not so bad one.. heheee.. after buying we went home.. not so bad.. bought wat he wants..
then on sun, i have classes till 2 so after that went AMK S11 to find him and his friends.. eat my lunch and head back to his house.. and chill out till my next class. then after that he book in le lor.. so sad.. only next monday then he can see me.. so sad... but never mind as i said.. he got one whole week one break... hee
Valentine's day is also on the way.. have plans to celebrate it earlier.. cos Valentine's actually is on Monday.. then heard from my bro commenting that most ppl will celebrate on Sat also.. sianz.. so think will have alot of ppl ba.. heehee
classes recently still not so bad.. something dramatic happen at my student house.. but lazy to blog.. heehee... tml got class.. so tired.. then thursday gor my own classes... then fri also got class... sat, sun also got clas... mon also got clas... then i can see baby le.. heehee.. goody~!~! heehee
babyfen woke up at 10:34 PM
