i still have a long long way to go before i reach the standards of my examination.. hope everything will be fine and strengthen my determination... so weak now...
tml can meet baby le... but can onli meet after his dinner.. so sad.. i can go one leh.. initally la.. but now cannot le.. so fetching him back after that lor.. sat then can go out.. nowadays.. not much places to go.. places always need money and to save money.. stay home is always the best solution.. and adding on to that i have my piano to practise at his home... so i would not realli mind not going out anymore cos i can practise more.. heehe.e.. oh ya... have to prepare for my student lessons also.... almost forget about that...
things i need to do:
1. Saturday aural notes for victoria
2. Sunday theory notes for jon and joyce
3. Progress card for alot of students
4. Wed G2 theory for jacqueline
5. Mon Sticker book 2 for aloysius
6. Mon sight reading for jefferson
7. Mon photocopy G1 for nimish
the below conversation is very common to me lately that i really kind of dread answering them again and again..
friend: "hi... working?"
me: "ya"
friend: "where?"
me: "oh as piano teacher"
friend: "oh not planning to work as others?"
me: "oh no."
friend: "good to earn ah?"
me: "ok lor"
friend: "not planning to study?"
me: "oh ya studying my piano lor"
friend: "oh. study piano ah?"
me: "Ya"
it seems like ppl have the impression that my work now is not an official job.. must i work 9 to 5 everyday at an office with smart office wear... then it will be considered a job?? and furthering studies on music is there a problem?? its not that easy to study leh... imagine i have to read the history of music from 1600 till now.. 400 of history.. if anyone can know them by finger tips let me know.. i would like to know how you do it lor... there are realli alot of things we have to learn when studying music.. like the simplest of all.. everything about the piano.. like who made it.. before the piano now there are alot more of different keyboard instruments then we also have to know them... its not so easy leh... so next time you hear ppl are studying piano... dun comment things like.. "oh studying music ah... (with that kind of wat's the big deal feeling) "
but there's this another typical conversation that i would also dread to answer... this will have the problem lies within me...
friend: "so wat's ur highest grade you are teaching now?"
me: "grade 5" (8 being the highest)
friend: "oh then u never teach grade 8?"
me: "nope"
well its not that i dun want.. cos ppl think i'm too young to handle.. well sometimes la hor.. no guinea pig who knows whether i can handle right?? but realli la... think i also dun realli trust myself so hope to build up my confidence soon la hor...
i was just been condemn by my teacher that i am way behind the schedule that was planned.. so i have to give up the idea of memorizing... so shitty sia.. i dun want that to happen... so i will try to prove everyone wrong... argh~!~!
babyfen woke up at 11:21 PM
GREETINGS !