is it realli difficult to trust someone completely?? knowing you will be able to be save with that person or able to keep secrets with that person??? i find that its never possible to do that.. no matter how close you are with that person.. there's this sense of doubt or feeling inside you that keeps you apart... no matter whether you are a couple, best friends, parents, siblings, married partners or which ever close relationship you can think of.. think the most is to trust about 90% onli ba....
been reading this book "inner game of music" by Barry Green.. its quite a nice book exploring the possibilities to performing the best out of you... it realli opens up everything associated with playing.. not onli knowing ur notes, ur rhythm, ur style.. but also some of your inner most feelings... there are also other series on this book like "inner game of tennis" and one "inner game of skiing" and few others which i dun realli remember well.. trying to finish it ba..
these two days i didn't take naps.. which is good.. cos i would be tired and sleep better at night... saturday spent my day at baby's house.. waited for my piano to come.. then after that didn't realli go out.. so baby played his game and i practised my piano.. first time at his house that i dun feel wasting my time away.. heheee... well have a little bit of after-purchase- dissatisfied feeling.. heehee.. i forgot about the recording function that i was looking for.. think too overwhelmed by the touch of the piano le... but nice la.. free and just play when i'm at baby's house... hope it helps... tml willl be dropping by to practise cos i have break between my classes.. and to go home very ma fan.. first time going there without baby at home.. hope it wont be that bad.. feeling strange strange...
just now went for dinner for mother's day with my family.. added family this time would be my kor's gf and my er ge's gf.. baby didn't go.. he dont feel very comfortable.. luckily he didn't go.. the food wasnt that nice and service sucks also.. no more next time man.. mom have 3 presents this year... as compared to previous years.. hope she will be happy and like her presents... heehee.. i got her a bag, my bro got her a wallet and another got her two polo shirts... nice shirt leh.. heehee.. showed my mom a hairclip i bought recently.. that she commented..."girl good hor.. can buy alot of nice things to make oneself pretty.." heehee that's true la.. cos guys always limited and when guys take effort in their appearance ppl will think they are sissy.. so biased sia.. but its like that one la hor.. no choice lor...
quite a few students having exams this week.. so parents called up to cancel class or reschedule class... sometimes realli wonder once a week lesson would hurt tat much??? then i was talking to my parents about nowadays parents so kiasu... 3, 4 years old already want to learn this learn that.. then i found out that my parents are too.. a bit paiseh saying like that.. cos my dad actually enrolled me for lessons in yamaha when i was 4 years old also.. so he's also kiasu one.. but must realli thanked him la.. so i'm exposed to music early.. but hor come to think of it.. i can't remember i went for lessons that young leh.. and i think my teacher at that time must have hated me lor.. cos i heard from my mom that i would always cry before going for lessons.. heehee... and also dun want to practise my piano everytime.. heehee... no wonder its happening to my students now.. heehee...
this weekend teach le.. next weekend holiday.. so good sia... but must change some of the classes.. but think this time be more smart... dun teach on the public holiday so i can rest..
babyfen woke up at 11:50 PM
GREETINGS !