wat a day~!~!
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
couldn't think of any title to put la.. so anyhow lor.. woke up at about 6plus to send baby off with two slices of bread.. heheee... no coffee for him.. so poor thing.. then went back sleep and supposed to wake up at about 830 to pack my stuff and practise a bit of piano.. in the end.. sleep until 930am like that then bathe and went out for work.. so sianz... after that.. came back home.. practise my piano a while ate lunch.. replied some letters.. prepared for work then arrange to meet my friend.. then went out to work at 1.30pm.. reached my student house at about 2.05pm a bit early but still went in for class...
then finished le. drove over to esplanade and practise my piano at the library.. when.. can say that the library quite nice environment.. but one bad thing is tat the room not sound proof.. so i guess the ppl there had a bad ear day today .. heeheee... then my friend reached at about 5pm.. i have practise for one hour like that.. then we chit chat and practise some duets.. 6pm.. off we go to work... cos we are working at the same place... Toa Payoh so decided to fetch her back after work since she stay in yishun too.. finished work.. drove over to fetch her.. then came home straight... supposed to have plan to do some of my stuff.. but the TV caught my attention.. watched Channel U 10pm show.. quite nice.. stuck there till baby called and said he's going sleeping le.. can't talk long.. so chit chat with him a while then bathe.. then watched a bit of the Man HUnt model show.. finished up a bit of my stuff.. and after this i'm going to sleep~!~! tml planning to wake up early.. hope i can do so la hor...shall seee....
well.. my friend is preparing for our year end concert le... still haven go book studio yet... everything just have to wait la... after my exams.. everything i'll do nicely... kind of envy her.. cos she's going to perform with her boyfriend.. she playing flute, him playing clarinet.. so nice and sweet sia... i will never get the chance to be like tat la.. just thinking that ppl who learn music together is good.. like tat got company to motivate each other... and somemore her bf is in SAF band one lor.. but good la her... getting married soon.... just waiting for something... heehee...
regretting most of the things i have not done.. so sianz... realli must realise and regret then u will find the urge to do something... argh~!~!~! just hope everything would turn out just fine.. if not i sure die.....
babyfen woke up at 11:47 PM
messy life...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
everything is so messy now.. my timetable for this week.. my room.. my piano.. my practise.. my work.. simply everything....
woke up today with a terrible headache... can't even think.. its just pain and more pain.. so decided to change all of my afternoon lessons... starting calling my students in the morning.. changed it to friday..(which was supposed to be an off day to practise)... then changed the afternoon classes also.. cos the headache was terrible for me... changed one to tml morning (supposed to be practise time).. another to wed afternoon (supposed to be another practise time...) ..argh~!~! plans is just ruin by my headace and everything is so messy now...
then ate my breakfast.. ate two panadol.. wanted to go sleep cos its realli hard for me to do anything.. then after that.. thinking wat my teacher has said before.. sometimes when you're sick you play better.. so went to practise my piano... practised my new song for another performance in sept.. at esplanade again... its a duet this time.. harder duet... quite not bad.. had some results.. in terms of notes and rhythm. while i was practising my little bro came back. he haven had his lunch so i gave my supposed to be lunch to him.. continued practising and baby show up~!~! he came over to visit me.. so sweet and nice of him.. with a self brewed barley water from his mom... so sweet of his mom too.. drank finished all... heehee..yummy~~! then seeing him have nothing to do... suggested to borrow some DVD from the PLay station... borrowed two.. actually is borrow then he watch show and i practise my piano.. but i was kind of attracted to the show.. so sat down and watch. in the end.. my practise session was cut short by alot.. heehee.. but nvm.. cos the time spend with him was nothing to be compared with.. after watching its like 6 plus.. he went back home for dinner.. so nice of him to travel up and down.. with our Combo.. its so much easier to see each other nowadays...
i have to teach at 8pm.. feeling much better.. and also no other time slots to replace their classes.. i went on teaching.. it was quite fine... reached home.. watched American Next TOp Model.. quite nice la.. not bad.. some pretty some not.. well its just a show... later have to sort out my timing for this week.. cos its been messed up by my headache... sianz...
exams coming liao le... even students exam is coming.. so stressed sia.. wonder how they would fair... so scare of any of them failing.. cos that will mean trouble for me...
18 Aug - Victoria (grade 5) / Andrea (grade 4)
23 Aug - Wei Ern (grade 1) / Jefferson (grade 1)
Unknown - Jalene (grade 1) / Xin Ge (grade 5)
Short Term Future Plans:
1. pass my diploma at least with a good pass
2. save enough money to pay alot of things.
3. get good health and face (hope so)
4. students pass their examination with high pass
Long Term Future Plans:
1. save enough money to get married
2. help in family support
3. teach for a very high standard
old already sia... 21 liao.. still thinking i'm like 17?? still got alot of years to have fun and get pass with alot of things... now cannot liao.. everything to do.. have to think of future and most important.. money.. without money so many things cannot do... its just like money still plays alot of important parts in our life.. lets say.. without money. i can't sit here blogging with all the rubbish... without money.. i can't go work tml.. without money.. i can't eat my lunch, dinner.. without money.. how can i get good face and health??? without money.. i can't have the chance to take exams....and the list just go on and on and on.. without stopping.....
most of time the list i make to do things will end up with no results.. its just so sianz..... lazy bum i am..
babyfen woke up at 12:27 AM
depressed....
Thursday, July 21, 2005
feeling so down now.. well.. its all about exams la... most probably not able to make it liao.. so sianz... hate exams now... stupid exams.... argh~!~! just went to masterclasses yesterday... well quite ok la... ex i would say... she's helpful in some ways.. in other ways not...
so worried now that i dun have the capabilities to pass my exams.. just hope that i will be able to play well that day.. haven received the date yet.. dont come so soon.. if not i will surely~!~!~! argfh~!~!~!
i drove a manual car yesterday.. after so long (1 year plus) i have finally have the chance again to drive a manual car.. well.. its terrible i think... difficult to concentrate.. cos auto just sit there can le.. now must be so busy with hands and clutch.. heheee.. sianz man.. but its a nice car and i love it.. so will take care of it when i can.. hehee.e...
gotta practise my piano again.. why can't anything get into my head... the past grades have been a bluff through for me.. now it cannot be already.. becos its so much demanding in standard..
babyfen woke up at 1:56 PM
5 years together...
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
these few days are very stressed or should i say more and more stress as days go by and i'm still at the same place wandering about... nothing much happened just classes everyday and preparing for work.. practising my piano and other minor stuff... there's one major day coming up on wed... its my masterclass with Slyvia Ng.. one very good professor.. (heard from my teacher that is)... sianz... dunno how it would go sia...
last friday..(15 july 2005) was me and baby's 5th year anniversary.. yup.. we are officially together for 5 years le.. that's a very long stretch of time to alot of ppl i think... it realli set me wonder how is it possible for us to be together for such a long time when our temper and alot of things is just too much for each other to handle.. heehe.. he also commented that he cant believe that he can stick with one girl for such a long time.. it applies to me too.. but definitely i'm fortunate enough to have him by my side to bully that is.. heehee...
our story from the start is not good at all.. started off so suddenly and many bad things happen before we are good in terms.. i think it took us about 1/2 year to settle my feelings? that's a very long stretch of time.... to a new relationship that is...
we didn't do much on that day.. cos we didn't have time... or plans should i say... my class ended at about 6.30pm then i met him over at his house.. cos it was rainly very heavily so he took cab from camp home.. cost him a bomb sia.. then after that reached his house.. his mom cooked his dinner so we ate a little then went out at about 8pm.. decided to go over to Junction 8 cos he mentioned that he want to eat Oyster Mee Sua.. and i suggested to him the chocolate fondue that i ate before at hagendaz (spelling not sure)... so reached there at about 8 plus.. went to look for present.. well this year both of us didn't get the presents on time.. heehee.. becos we are so lost in buying presents already as many have been bought or no money to buy expensive stuffs... he brought me to perlini silver to buy a couple ring since he lost his long long ago while playing with it with different fingers.. and i still have mine...(that's y u will see me wearing two rings.. one on each hand...) then since i have no idea wat to get from him... (actually have.. but couldn't make it in time for that day).. so we got each other the ring in the end.. .a nice ring for him but not realli for me.. seems fat (thick).. but quite ok la.. more shinny then the old one.. heehee.. well.. we dont have money for the diamond one.. but we saw one very nice one at a jewellery shop.. he mentioned that he will buy it when he have the $$.. we shall see la hor.. heehee... after that we went shop shop around for some things.. but didn't buy anything in the end.. so we went over to the Hagendaz and started our fondue.. its not as nice as i have last ate in at esplanade.. the esplanade one.. realli very nice.. thick chocolate.. harder ice cream... fruits more fresh.. environment much more romantic... but nevertheless.. this time is the accompanion that counts.. so its still much more compared to last time heehee.. well.. but i was comparring the fondue so much to baby that i think he's just sick of listening to it.. heheee... we ordered another waffle..its nice... very nice... next time shall have the chance to go esplanade one.. it will be so nice.. or maybe i can adopt baby's idea...(secret..) heheee... after that we went home.. then he sent me home after that... that's how our 5 years define itself....
can one always make u laugh endlessly without u thinking that u are just entertaining him??
can one always make u hurt pain when he encounters things that is frustrating to him instead of you??
can one always be there when u need him in anything like grumbling, shopping, eating, sleeping, watching TV, hanging out and everything else??
can one encourage you and stand by you when everything fails and everyone start to leave you alone???
can one be constantly reminding you about how much he cares and loves you??
can one always laugh at your mistakes and still stand by you telling the right path after that???
can one always sit there playing endless games and you will take the initative to learn that game as well??
can one always snore but you still like to sleep by him???
can one be so unbelieveable to all his friends and yet you believe everything that he say even you know sometimes its not true????
can one be so patient to wait by your claseses when he just walk around aimlessly waiting for the time to come??
can one be so enduring even someone bullies him like no tomorrow??
can one be so forgiving when even someone makes mistakes and blame all the things on him???
can one be so big hearted to sacrifice everything just for someone he likes???
can one spend so endlessly on someone that he likes instead of for himself???
can one be just so loving and caring to someone he hardly owes???
the more i write.. the more i feel this someone who is always by my side and i realli feel the passion that is going on.. i will never ever let you go, baby.... a song that i've been attracted to these few days.. and i keep on listening to it.. the chorus is more than wat i want to say... its just fit my feelings everytime i face him...(mushy hor.. who cares... heehee )
The Blower's Daughter Performed by Damien Rice
taken away to be my blog's song.. cos i'm just addicted to it.. And so it is,Just like you said it would be.Life goes easy on me,Most of the time.And so it is,The shorter story.No love, no glory.No hero in her sky.I can't take my eyes off of you.I can't take my eyes off you.I can't take my eyes off of you.I can't take my eyes off you.I can't take my eyes off you.I can't take my eyes...And so it is,Just like you said it should be.We'll both forget the breeze,Most of the time.And so it is,The colder water.The blower's daughter,The pupil in denial.I can't take my eyes off of you.I can't take my eyes off you.I can't take my eyes off of you.I can't take my eyes off you.I can't take my eyes off you.I can't take my eyes...Did I say that I loathe you?Did I say that I want toLeave it all behind?I can't take my mind off of you.I can't take my mind off you.I can't take my mind off of you.I can't take my mind off you.I can't take my mind off you.I can't take my mind...My mind, my mind,'Til I find somebody new.
babyfen woke up at 12:01 AM
Friends for life..
Thursday, July 14, 2005
woke up very early today.. at about 6.50pm... cos baby have to go back camp and i went over his house to stay last night.. then went over to my old house to clear some stuff and took back some letters that i have received during my secondary school days.. well it kinda of bring back alot of memories to me.. and reading back.. come to think of that.. think i was quite childish that time.. so reading them brought back how i felt about my very close friends during that time.. so decided to blog about them today.. giving intro and comments about our individual friendship..
well guess some ppl know about us some dont.. but i just feel like writing cos they are a group of very close friends to me.. we are ex-known as CASH.. well.. not becos we like money but its becos our names come up to cash... it was very interesting to know.. cos one of them (soolee) managed to think of this name.. smart girl right??
lets' roll....first up(in alphabetical order to our CASH name) :
*below are things i know on my side.. any information tat is wrong.. well.. that means i am not good in memory or listening.. so no offence ppl. we started to be close to each other in sec 2 cos we are in the same class.. and from there we slowly build up our friendship...
CANDY
a very sporty girl.. good in basketball and quite popular among guys..she's very outspoken and is very loyal to friends.. any thing that we have in problem she will be there to help (which friend doesn't right?? heehee ) wat i mean is that she sure will be there to support la... now happily attached for 4 years with her boyfriend.. last i heard think they are very stable and might plan to get married ba.. heeeehee.. not very sure.. she has signed on to police.. and quite good reputation in there.. cos some of my friends would know who she is.. heehee.. was quite close with her during sec 3 onwards.. but one incident happened between me and her.. which i remember very clearly but i dunno whether is she realli meant to say that or not... neverthelesss.. happy for her now looking at wat she have.. and she always seems to be the happiest of our lot..
CHRISTINE
my best friend now... last time not realli.. started off ok during sec 2.. was not very close.. then towards sec 3 end and sec4 life.. we started to be close... now still close.. the most person i am in contact now... a very blur girl in sec 2.. but surprisingly i have comments that she like to bully ppl.. heehee.. dunno whether true or not la... volley ball player.. the most slimest among us.. too slim le la at that time... she's currently studying in SIM.. taking degree course.. not attached.. but dunno when she will be la... heheee... we like to gossips alot.. as usual.. girls wat.. gossips about alot of things.. which i can't say here la... but nice girl to chat and hang out with.. and the thing we like most is eat... that's y now we both kind of gain alot of weight?? heeehe
AILIN
she's the same class with me from sec 1 to sec 4... a very close friend i had in secondary school... well a nice lady to gossip with also.. we talk about alot of things during our sec life.. and always talking bad about teachers alot.. heehee.. typical la hor... currently now happily attached to her bf for 6 years liao and can see that she's very happy with her life.. busy working also..(not very sure wat though.. office work i know) not very much in contact nowadays... busy with our lives and kind of dirfted a little after sec school... hope to meet up soon with her ba... she's very popular in sec sch.. well considered the school belle.. sure got alot of admirations from guys one.. well but she onli have eyes for one.. heehee..
SOOLEE
sometimes see her as a quiet girl but she can be very crazy at times la.. to me.. quite a soft spoken lady.. i always see her as a mature thinking girl as compared to me la.. got close together in sec 3 onwards like that ba... now sometimes still hang out together as a group... happily attached to a guy..(dunno name.. dunno how long.. heehee)... she's also had a few admirations from guys.. i think so... hehee.. but she's always seems to be the cold person.. but actually is not.. now studying medical stuff i think... she's considered the smarter of the lot ba..went to study in JC...only one o... (out of us)... basketball player also..
HUIZHEN
she was very close to me in sec 3.. this is kind of the sad period for her.. cos out of we 6, she was the onli one who went to the other class.. that means in sec 3 .. the other five of us was in the same class la... so we started writing letters to each other.. that are the letters that i mentioned at the start.. we wrote alot of letters... realli alot.. talking about guys, school, friends, BGR, teachers and others... thinking back, i was very close to her.. but dunno since when we stopped writing letters to each other but still got talk... now very sure how's she now.. i know she's studying degree also in private schools... for business one... think she's attached.. not very sure.. i also didn't have much contact with her..onli through friends then i heard her news one.. kind of miss writting the letters to her.. seems fun and exciting and the feeling of waiting for letters is just nice..
lastly that's me
HWEEFEN
well.. think guess all have been seen and heard from myself... so nothing much to write.. but thinking back.. some thing that bother me quite alot when i was with this group of ppl is that i felt very left out.. becos of the fact that i was not good looking... cos all of them are pretty so whenever i want to catch attention in sec school.. i always do it in a very loud way... that's y ppl see me as a very rough person. which i dont deny cos i was very tomboy last time... now change le.. but still have this loud personality inside me... cos i will still have the inferior feeling inside me.... i always envy them able to have alot of friendships and good looking face that ppl always want to be with them.. well.. but now sometimes still will like that la.. but these kind of things can't change much also... so as long as i have baby by my side i am more than happy... think it applies to them also ba... as in as long as they have their loved ones by their side.. would they still remember me?? nt sure..
here's a photo of us in order taken in sec 2 i think
Candy, Christine, Ailin, Soolee, Huizhen, Hwee Fen (me)
well miss all of them and the friendship that i had with each one of them..hope to meet them up soon and get a new picture posted up here.. which i think might have to wait very long... something happened to us, this group during sec 4 life.. one of them was saying not to include her in our group and it kind of make me feel sad.. cos this group is not to show off to ppl that we are 6 ppl having good friendships.. this group is realli something true about our own friendship or at least my friendship with them and i realli treasure them alot... so hope we can stay the same throughout.. and maybe when i get married we all 6 might have a chance to wear wedding gowns together while the 5 of them are my bridesmaid.. heeheee... think la hor.. think..... ^^v
babyfen woke up at 10:18 AM
1.25am
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
well its kind of late now... normally still think its quite ok.. but tml have a new student.. so actually now considering... late already.. oh ya.. must print something for her... kk... later must prepare..
today had a long day... managed to pull through la.. but same as usual.. the students are not realli doing a good job tat i realli sometimes dread going to their lessons... yayaa.. i know.. i have to do something about it... but still dunno what is the best way to motivate everyone.. so sianz sia... the eurasian boy as usual.. couldn't care much about the lessons.. so i couldn't care much either... was sitting through the whole lesson trying to get him to play something on the piano and always ended with nothing.. so i just sit there waiting for time to be up and i shall go off... well.. i'm going to end his lessons... nothing can make me work.. so i've decided not to teach.. dun waste my time and effort trying to coax him to play a simple song... primary two.. realli can't understand kids nowadays... wat so big shot about them.. can't they like use their brain and think??? wat ever.... tml also quite a long day... going to have lessons in the morning at quite far.. oh ya.. have to check the place again.. then after that meeting my friend for lunch and then teaching till 8+pm.. tml driving.. so not so bad.. but i kind of dun like driving nowadays.. keep on thinking that something will happens... cos i'm always a very last min person.. which means i would wake up late and then will drive very fast in order to reach the student's house on time... so sianz.... wat to do.. lazy person lazy person...
oh ya.. got a few photos to share.. from my friend's birthday last time...
Me, birthday girl (wenlin) and christine
My secondary school mates..they are as follows
Back Row(from left to right): Guys
Baosheng, Weihao, Edwin, Keryoung, Euren, Jason, Zhaojin, Tingyi, Kenneth, Alan, Yuanjie, Ah Boon
Front Row (from left to right): Girls
Luana, Candy, Christine, Wenlin and me
well not all of the ppl go.. mainly guys if you all see.. but had quite a nice time catching up with them...
today is my best friend's birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIRSTINE~!~!~!
Taken quite long ago.. eh 6 months back??
Taken outside paragon last sat (9 July 2005)
babyfen woke up at 1:06 AM
wat to look out for...
Sunday, July 10, 2005
just finished a mini mock examination today.. had a long day.. supposed to have class in the morning but my student called to cancel it off.. so waited for my friends to come over to start off the examination.. well this examination's was put up by me and two other friends... purpose is to let students have a 'feel' of wat the examination was like.... well.. the response from parents were quite ok.. but the problem is the passing rate is like 30%? it was like very low and it hit my morale right from the start...
first student up was a little girl.. for grade 1.. well.. she failed.. becos she missed alot of things.. as in like play quite alot of wrong notes.. didn't finished practising one of her pieces also... so sad when i heard her failure.. next up was my student again.. yup.. she failed also.. cos of some of her things not done properly...wonder is it my fault or wat... then when her mom knows of the result.. her face was like so black.. and definitely i was being questioned about the teaching... low morale... realli very low... up next third in line.. was my student again.. well at least she passed... cos she's actually quite ok one la.. but then didn't realli pass that well.. the examiners (my friends) today very the strict.. so like tat lor... then up next fourth was my friend's student... i was taking the exam.. quite ok.. but the girl very nervous... overall still make it... then there was a break.. supposed to have.. but then the student arrived early so we start him... a cute boy (commented by my friends)... he passed the exams.. then followed on with other students... which i'm lazy to elaborate.. but all the others fail all the way through the end..
i realise a few things about myself today and i find it kind of disturbing for myself... wonder is it just me or wat other ppl see.. first.. i found myself very defensive when ppl mentioned something bad about anything i do or anything i say... second.. i seems to be very arrogant of wat i do and wat i see... third... can't realli see myself clearly when i always comment on ppl's bad things... fourth.. not doing a good job enouggh...five.. i'm a very competitive person..
argh~!~! my morale is damn low now that i realli dunno what to do with classes tomorrow.. think maybe like baby say... dun worry too much.. its just a mock examination.. but how can i not??? mock examination already like tat real examination how?? its kind of good we actually organise this becos now i see myself also.. strives to be a more strict teacher.. no more messing around with students... argh... just hope tml everything will be fine...
babyfen woke up at 10:14 PM
officially to be blind~!~!
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
yesterday had my infections of eyes again.. so wore my ugly specs go out.. ok la. not so bad.. my friend thinks its not realli as bad as i think.. and hor.. so i decided to go and change a nicer specs with her.. at least someone can help me see whether nice or not ma.. then went for the dreadful eye check... argh~!~!~!~!~! its up again and i think i'm realli going to do the Lasik surgery once i have the money.. cos i realli cannot stand the sight of seeing my eyes increasing every year...
and today think have to go out with specs again... sianz... hope my new specs is nicer so maybe i just stick to specs for quite a while.... well.. maybe its my own fault that i didn't take care of my eyes.. so will see how from now ba... hoping to go for the consultant on Lasik soon.. at least i would know whether i'm suited for the surgery or not....
so sleepy now.. ya.. its 3 in the afternoon and i just woke up at 12pm.. and i just feel like sleeping again.. sianz.... tonight got class.. hope i will teach without sleeping.. heehe....
monday again was a very bad day.. always the students problem.. sianz sia... wonder wat to do... this sunday. having a mock examination at my house... with my friends helping me to judge my students and vice versa... wonder hwo to entertain the parents sia.. but must remeber to buy drinks.. if not. like nothing to serve them like that...
babyfen woke up at 2:38 PM
alot of things to arrange..
Friday, July 01, 2005
two days passed after my performance.. still have the enxiousness inside me.. two weeks passed after my 21st birthday... every seems so quiet now...
july le.. starting to get busy... well... cos my exams is nearing.. new students coming..alot of work to arrange and many other things to worry about...
on my mind now.. i have quite alot of things to complete.. it just seems that i can't get it done always... wonder wat will happen few days later... yesterday had lessons with my teacher.. going to miss her for 2 weeks cos she's going scotland for her brother's graduation or something.. didn't realli asked very detailed... straight after she comes back.. i'll have a master class... its EX~! but hope it helps.. so no lazing around these two weeks.. sad... heehee... well ppl always have this question about master class... its kind of a teaching session.. but the difference is that.. its by someone very high in education.. like a professor with masters?? then u will prepare pieces for them..and then they will give concrete suggestions to your playing and in a good way its supposed to improve your playing la.. after the master class.. i think i have another session with a group of judges before my real examination... so scared.. so little things that i have prepared... must go library one of these days.. if not i sure die flat flat....
oh ya... yesterday i didn't quite alot of housework.. well quite la hor... cos i didn't have the feeling of practising.. so went to do housework lor... helped to ironed my bro clothes.. so he wont grumble about having to iron... he also very poor thing.. things changed in our family that he have to get ready alot of things by himself while back then things were prepared for me by my dearest mom.. heehee....
today went for one class.. last week i've spoke to her mom about her learning attitude and so today can see drastic change in her learning approach.. good leh.. but can still see she's very restless after like 1/2 hour lesson... think next time dun give her so long ba... later still have class till 9pm... tml long day also.. baby having NDP rehersal tml again.. so i tried to do any replacement class on these few sats... but i think we are having very little time for each other.. co s i have classes that always clashes with his free time... not that i want though.. sometimes i just dread having to arrange classes properly... having issues with time and money is the thing that we have now.. want to buy car.. no money.. want to go out.. save money... want to buy things.. save money.. think must realli save.. hope to reach few thousands in my bank end of this month.. i hope... heheee... oh ya.. have to change phone somemore.. even worst.. sianz.. think i'll just borrow from my bro his phone ba.. at least can save money first... think i'll take public transport later.. can save on petrol.. but then tonight will have problems going home...sianz.. wat to do wat to do.... argh`!~!~!
wonder buying one palm top will be useful or not.. tried using my bro one.. dunno is it becos its old model i dun like or wat... cos i always write things i have to do in different places that i always forget to do them in the end.. heehee.. "I wonder how... i wonder why...lalalalalalaala"
babyfen woke up at 11:34 AM
