caught in between...

stupid sia.. cancel my class today.. still thinking whether to cancel the ones at night.. cos my ear is realli not getting any better or any worser(good thing)... after my exams even the helicopter becomes big one also never mind... now just worried about my exams..

i want to practice.. but scare too much practice again then hurt my ears then it will be worst.. tml supposed to have another lesson before exams on friday.. just to let my teacher hear how is it.. but given this kind of situation.. wonder whether to go or not. waste money waste time??? sianz....

can some one just cure my ear for this week??? later rest till the afternoon practice a while and see how... if not sianz.... worst exam situation i'm in.. better condition in playing.. yet worse condition in physically...

babyfen woke up at 1:10 PM

helicopter problem again..

well my ear is giving me problems again.. that's y i'm here blogging instead of teaching.. cancel my night class just to give my ears a rest... hopefully by tml it will be ok then i can start practicing again.. if not.. friday would be gone... but wat teacher say is right.. wat u have practice u have already done.. there's nothing u can do le in such a short time.. u cant change any thing big.. just go exams and play to 100 percent and the rest is depending on examiners judement le.. whether they like it or not.. there's nothing u can control.. in a way.. becos music is subjective... diufferent ppl different view.. some might think u are good.. some might think u are average.. some might think you are bad... so shall see how on friday.. hopefully no pressure = no sweat...

something took place recently... not to say its bad or wat.. but it did got me into thinking... and i responding too much to baby le... think he also dun like... too much talk about it... shall keep quiet about it next time.. but i know i'm not this type of person.. i am also human... a girl into relationship.. so therefore easily worried about other girls getting close to their boyfriend.. but this case is different... i was the one getting into them in the first place.. maybe everything would be different from then..

so these few days i shall try to keep quiet and grumble to myself about it.. cannot say too much cos i dun want another friendship to be broken... but some times when u heard "how come you talk like her?" being said to you instead of saying that to other girl... you would feel strange.. or should i say i would feel strange.. but never mind.. i have faith and i believe nothing will go wrong as i put in my part... the other thing i'm worried now is another person.. hopefully no intentions by him.. if not everything would be just as messy....

thinking back i think everyone whether guy or girl would want a very close friend irregardless or sex too... like girl can have a very close boy-friend and vice versa... just hope that everything would be ok... its been long and maybe something to boost our relationship would be better...

do you take someone in considering both whether is she/he good to you and to your family?? or someone that is good to you can le?? wonder whether i'm worth the both.. cos who dun want to be both.. to be loved by him and his family...

yes i do say i dun mind this and that... but i also like to talk about things i feel... so now i understand that guys are also difficult to understand... i want to say the things i feel about.. then you would say i think too much.. then if i never say anything.. then you would say that i never tell you... so isn't this the same like girls?? so pls dun keep on saying guys and girls are different... they are all human and have the same way to ppl too...

just got to know that another couple friend that i know is breaking up.. or broke up le i also dunno... is that realli so difficult to live together and spend their time together.. maybe not meeting ur partner everyday is a good thing.. even after marriage i think days should be given to each other to spend time with their friend... that's y i envy my bro and da sao.. although some problems might arise but they still managed to go over it and have quality time for themselves and individually...

*above post is a one-time feeling post.. does not reflect what i think in long term.. might change for the better or the worst.. watever it is i will face it bravely....

babyfen woke up at 8:52 PM

he's out.. i'm in 2..

well its sunday.. a slacking day at home.. kind of la... was practising from 3pm.. then at around 5 plus.. my helicopter starts to come back.. yesterday was ok le... so couldnt take it le.. stop at around 6... can say got slight improvement.. dunno tml wat teacher will say.. think have to avoid practicing with air con on these few days.. if not my ears will realli have problems le...

ordered pizza hut for dinner.. now waiting for it to be delivered.. heehee.. although i should avoid all these foods.. but hungry and nothing to eat at home and afternoon already ate noodles.. so ok lor... got alot of ppl at home also... i mean everyone in my family la...

baby is out from 2 plus till now.. not back home yet.. dun expect him to return early also.. cos he's out with old flame.. hehee.. not realli la.. he's out with some sec school friends that he was very close to... to catch up old times that is.. hehee.. at coffeebean now.. so good. . i also want.. i mean i also want to go coffeebean to drink my ICE MOCHA~!~!~! hows' that??? nothing to drink now... keep on drink water.. instructed by baby also...

uploaded some pictures to my bro's com le.. but didn't on my com just now so didn't transfer.. so maybe later then ask him to transfer for me... he's playing game now.. better dun disturb.. never ask anyting from guys if there are playing game.. my experiece is that they will forget the next second and would not know what he has talked to you about.. and the worst thing is that the respond time is extreemmmeeelllyyyy slooootwwwoowwowowow... well maybe not all guys.. but baby is one of them.. heheee... (edited:pictures are below)

found out that i realli have nothing to do except to practice.. like now.. realli can't practice too much so i online.. surf net also nothing to surf.. sianz... play game also no game to play.. prepare class also forget wat to do...

oh ya.. just received two presents from my students for teacher's day... sweet and one of them i think is expensive one... hopefully its not also.. but i also can't carry around.. doesn't suits me.. but planning to act tai tai on sunday.. going out with christine.. gossips here i come.. hehee. .and planning to eat ice cream too.. nice~!~!~! can't wait....

september no holidays... so sianz... cannot be lazy.. but i think this few months quite blessed... alot of students change here and there.. and i also change here and there.. so doesn't feel that busy... maybe that's y i dun feel any pressure of not preparing classes ba... the other class i'm worried about is the theory class... hopefully after i start to have class myself it would be ok..

something dumb that i did... i reformatted my com recently right?? thinking that i onli need my students' stuff... all other stuffs i never transfer.. and guess wat... i deleted my japanese worksheets and never save the website that i got from.. then i deleted my piano diploma programme notes that i spent like ages to make till ok... then i deleted my bank records that i save to see my expenses... stupid right.. and i think there's no end to the deleted list... as time goes by i would remember wat other things i deleted also... dumb....


taken on the way to KTV to meet baby... tried to tie my hair but looks not nice...


present given by my student.. a bit matured for me to take this out...

babyfen woke up at 6:53 PM

he's out.. i'm in..

baby is out to watch EPL with his friends... called him just now and he mentioned about somewhere nice... while i'm at home... waiting for him to reach home.. so to talk to him then i will have my beauty sleep... sometimes feel very empty and strange when i never go out with baby.. normally he goes where i go where... with his friends.. normally you will see me along too... girls are always girls... go out nothing to do sit there listen to their conversation complain... go out never bring u along... also complain... it just feels different when he's out and i'm home.. but can't blame him cos i never go find him.. practice piano at home.. he also borring at home.. leveling for his FlyFFF..new game.. quite nice the graphics.. but just another waste time game...

today practice a little.. seems improvement in all pieces except one.. tml shall spend the whole day practicing...

5 more days to my exams... scary and realli half hope that it will come by fast.. half hope that it will never come by.. never mind i have alot of plans after the exams.. main thing is to meet up with friends and start learning new things...and hang out with baby more..

no pictures... bro is sleeping can't go over and transfer the pictures.. lazy also la..so never mind lor.. didn't took much pictures too.. when i'm out will try to take... was also thinking whether to buy a good camera so i can start taking alot of PRO pictures.. which is hard la...

holidays' plans might be gone.. beocs of $$$... stupid $$$ again.. any sponsors??? i just need about $600 can le... for me and weihao so that would be like $1200 together... heheee....

any ppl got suggestions where to go for holiday reasonable and nice??? let me know wo...

babyfen woke up at 12:05 AM

wat it takes to be married..

today went for another practice at the exam studio.. this time with my friend... she gave me some advices... must try to change them.. i think la.. on the exam day if i dun get too nervous and play alot of wrongs and correct those that i'm weak at now.. then should be able to make it...

the bad thing about practice today is i can't realli hear myself.. Y??? cos i'm have a small helicopter in my ear... those ppl who experience ringing sound in their ear.. same like me but i describe it as helicopter.. cos it realli sounds like one... hopefully it will be better by sunday if not monday have to see doctor le.. how to take exams if the helicopter is not been shot down... sianz..

after practice realli dun feel like practicing and realli can't hear myself went over baby's house to slack till now then i reach home.. practically slept my way through and watch TV and then eat my dinner... heehee... lazy PIG...

yesterday baby went KTV with some of his poly friends.. kaypo me.. wanted to join them... so i fetched him to the place where he kena summoned for illegal parking.. heehee.. he didn't want to drive la.. so i fetch him he can save on the coupon money and transport also.. then i went for my night class... after that went back to fetch him home... cos he no car and din't want him to waste money taking cab.. listen to the guys sang a few songs.. saw a new face of the group.. someone's gf.. quite pretty wo... but didn't talk la.. think i always dun click with other ppl gf... as usual... this group of ppl sang quite well.. compared to the other group that i always go out with baby with. heehee.. went back around 11 plus.. wasted one 50cents coupon which no need to put on la.. never mind lor... wanted to buy coffee bean to drink one... but didn't bring out the coupon and lazy to kind of buying the thing although the shop is like one street away onli from the KTV place.. so went back....

oh ya.. today's topic.. didn't want to blog today.. but worried that i would forget about it... so here i am...

just got to know something bad about a married couple.. not to the extend of how bad is it i know.. but i know its just not a healthy relstionship at all.. if this happens to me i rather not be married lor... its like this guy is out not say playing with girls or maybe have i also dunno.. but i strongly believe that a guy must stay faithful after marriage.. yup get this clear.. after marriage.. i feel that during relationship some wrong doings here and there still can accept.. but after marriage if things still happen often like either guys have one night stand with girls or vice versa.. it is just something that is not going to be healthy in long term... and if one side have to keep on staying quiet about the matters that he/she knows.. its going to be even worst.. cos sure one day that person will explodes and everything will turns very ugly...

i do agree that after marriage.. both sides will have to put in extra effort to stay attractive to each other.. not to say guys are bad or wat.. but they are ALL,yes ALL, easily tempted ppl becos their faithfulness is less than women by ALOT ALOT ALOT... so for wives to stay pretty and sexy is always an advantage to the marriage.. who would still fool around when they can proudly exclaim "I have a very HOT and SEXY wife waiting for me at home now".. i believe the men would just can't wait to go home every night... for wat no need to say la.. but also apart from "that".. to go home and accompany their wives is already a very fortunate thingy...

been watching this 9pm show... realli my thinking of marriage also tending towards Norman.. well lazy to explain the show.. so ppl who dun watch it dun catch my saying.. then too bad lor... Marriage is realli something just for show.. i believe in Singapore, most of the married couples stayed on becos of their children.. how many would be so sure and stand out and say " I love my husband becos he done ...........this .... that.... this...that... for me..." or even " I love my wife becos she's HOT sexy... this... understanding..this.. that.... for me"... most of them would say... " have to support children wat" ... "cannot let children dun have parents wat"...

maybe one day u'll find me not getting married.. dun be surprised.. that doesn't mean i dun love baby any more.. its becos i love him that i dun want to get hurt myself or him knowing that living together is going to be alot more trouble then being together....

i would just say that its takes realli alot of effort to be together... pls think twice.. thrice or even million times before you are sure you will be faithful to each other and love each other for this life... then get married and start a family.. even if u get married and dun want to have kids fine.. no problem.. just take watever you all want into ur lives.... dun let others influence you...

babyfen woke up at 12:05 AM

little shopping...

did a small shopping today.. very happy with the results.. kind of la.. was looking for shoes for my exams.. it seems like every time i take exam i got new clothes and shoes.. hehee.. this time is the most formal and nicest of all i would say.. ppl change la hor...

this is the shoe i bought.. going to wear it with a black dress.. probably this friday then i will go down and practice with my exam outfit... shall take a picture if i can remember... or if i have the mood..


went for yoga classes.. think i realli sucks at yoga sia.. cant even reach the floor with my legs straight and also cannot keep my back straight... think must do like 1 year or so then can... so sad....maybe its also becos i never practice at home.. hehee.e.lazy



i realise that i'm actually i very tomorrow person.. think u all should know wat it means la hor.. like tml got time then do.. tml then finish up these things.. tml then i go buy..tml then i practice more... but everyday's tml.. so its like never ever finish one lor..

oh ya.. i also bought an umbrella ultraman.. for those who knows me.. knows that i'm crazy over ultraman.. the cartoon version pls... the eyes no black dots one.. very particular which one... i started this craze in secondary school.. when ever i see ultraman i will feel happy.. also dunno why.. like some ppl see their favourite idol... their favourite car... their favourite clothes.. same la hor... just that i'm a bit different.. see something more cartoon ma... sometimes i wonder in the future would i still like cute things as now?? now i'm into hello kitty sia.. saw alot of nice things but no worries i still like ultraman more.. heheee... oh ya.. if when i old and i see ultraman and i goes "eee... ultraman wo.. so cute.. i want to buy"... wonder whether any kids that saw my reaction will laugh or will think i'm senile.. heheee... shall see... think next time i would be a forgetful old lady le...

8 more days to exam.. scary.. its nearing and i'm very worried... instead of excited... just can't wait for exams to be over.. after that just pure learning till old....

planned some holidays with baby le... heheee.. yippe... can go holiday le.. so happy.. but whether it would come true or not. .have to see how.... have a few places in mind.. even australia is considered inside.. hows that eh??? pre pre honeymoon.. hehee.. realli hope can travel to alot of places with him.. and then we can enjoy life together... travel more good for couples so u would see each other more how they survive in different environment... can't wait realli can't wait... these few days keep on losing time time with him.. so sad... dont have time to accompany him even just to sit there and talk and disturb him... would it be this way in the future??? still long la hor.. dun worry about that yet...

HOLIDAY~!~! just can't wait..

babyfen woke up at 11:40 PM

still cannot upload photos..

my computer still cannot transfer my pictures from my phone..so everytime must always transfer from my bro's com... but hor.. always forget.. if not is lazy... if not too late he sleep le... last time when i switch on computer its a very usual practice then i upload the photos that's why i can post all thos pictures... some more last time got photoshop.. can add this add that.. now cannot.. fix one.. so sianz...

today went to practice at the exam studio with baby that is... its kind of bad.. i think... not to the extent of failing.. but also not to the extend of a high pass.. was hoping that i can score more than a pass.. that means these few days would be hard work + hard work + hard work.. after that.. wat i want to do... heheee.. also can le.. .not actually la.. teacher gave me two weeks off to practice some things... things given le... then after that must go back for class.... from there is just learn till old le... kind of... i think i would never ever be a good performer.. hopefully it doesn't goes the same for a teacher...

tml is packed till very long... whole day from 9am to 10pm.. good also la.. at least other days more time to practice... having very light dinner and meals nowadays... kind of becomin a habit le.. not heathly i know.. but also have to lor.. cos no dinner time most of the time.. and i also hate eating alone.. sad sad sad....

today nearly forgot to take my rings after my practice.. actually is forgot le.. but remembered then went back to take.. luckily no ppl see sia.. i think ppl see they also wont want lor.. not white gold or something.. somemore is lousy silver also... if gone i would be sad.. one have been with me like 6 years plus.. the other is like about hmmm... 3 or 2 years??? cannot remember also...

9 more days.. very scary sia... friday got another practice.. if realli need another probably will book on weekend night le.. that's wat they are left with i think.. but i think also not much choice too... shall see

oh ya... forgot to mentioned about another movie i've watched its 50 first dates.. it's about this girl who has a memory of a certain day after a car accident.. her father and brother keeps on helping her.. as in just let her live her life as that one particular day over and over again..and its her father birthday..so its like every day also celebrate his birthday for like 1 year??? so long lor.. then Adam Sandler falls in love with this girl tries to help her get back but is cannot.. then after that managed to convince her and make a different video everyday every morning so she will see and reminds herself about this guy in the morning.. so sad lor.. imagine u have this friend or boyfriend then the next day u totally dunno him... ?? sad right??? but its realli funny to see how ADAM SANDLER tries to flirt and win her everyday... if realli a guy in the real world would be like that.. sure after 3 days sure give up one.. cos to this guy he's like facing the same person everyday without seeing any progress??? sometimes he gets rejected.. sometimes he wins her over.. while this girl feels fresh everyday.. cos to her everyday is like with a different guy??? i dun believe this type of guy exists..

babyfen woke up at 11:23 PM

sianz...

had lessons with my teacher today... 2nd last lesson before my exams... well kind of corrupt everything.. not realli everything.. she mentioned that one of my piece is wat i have to work on myself.. sometimes think think also true.. like watever u can teach u already teach but student still cannot make it... so also not ur fault... i never blame my teacher...think its myself that i have to pass.. tml going down to practice at the exam studio.. asked baby to go along with me... shall see how... better dun end up talking to him can le.. heheee...

he's been out these few nights having supper... wait he put on weight then he come back and tell me.. going to ignore him... EPL start le ma.. and somemore mnost of his friends are like clearing leave also.. if not ORDed le... so more friends to go out with... good la like that... at least he doesn't feel bored.. after my exams i'm going to disturb him everyday sia... hehee...

ended off today quite ok.. students ok onli... lessons not very good either.. but one thing to be happy about is that i did not kena summon... heehee..nearly la.. i was out from student's house and saw the lady few cars away from mine... quickly walked up to my car and drove off.. if i was late by like 2 mins or so.. i would kena a $6 fine... this time not because i never put coupon.. is because i drag my classes a bit.... so luckily sia... maybe this will happen if i just put a coupon... 10 more days to exams... hopefully everything would be fine. .if not sure die one la... but i think i've said this sentence like millions of times??? so who ever hear this alll the time.. just ignore wo...

oh ya.. did i mentioned i watch BREAK UP le??? wanted to watch CLICK one.. but the show very long le.. so not much ppl like not very nice.. so decided to watch BREAK UP>. jennifer aniston so pretty sia.. all the clothes she wear is like so nice and all are of baby's fav... so who can find those clothes.. pls let me know.. i also want to buy... quite a nice show.. they BROKE up in the end.. duh... the movie title says so le ma... but i believe after that sure they will be together one... hehee... but its realli kind of stupid how a small conversation about taking for granted would end up like this... hopefully not all couples would be ended like this.. talking about couples..

i just heard news that one of my friend broke up with her bf.. its like 5 years long relationship.. kind of sad... but it was given a serious thought before things like this happen.. hopefully she will not regret it... dun think she will though...

its realli sad when things around u just happen towards the negative side.. just can't help but wonder whether why these things happen... although ppl always say that things happen for a reason??/ wat kind of reason would that be if its not good one...

babyfen woke up at 10:45 PM

sunday is ok but baby is missed...

woke up today and taught one lesson.. then was practicing for my exams as usual... then halfway went to talk to my bro and come back my da sao was watching tv.. so sad... couldn't continue my practice.. so i suggested that go out lunch with my bro and went Junction 8.. actually was supposed to be there also at 3pm cos one of my student needs to practice for his exam at cristofori.. so went there early for lunch.. had cafe cartel... very full sia... think must try to cut on my intake of food.. then probably wont weigh so much.. imagine that.. i'm heavier than my bro.. so sad...

after lunch went around walk walk.. bought a few small items... he bought me a keychain to hang on my phone.. nice sia.. hehee.. cos he was planning to get back a more ex present for his birthday lor.. smart right??? must make sure i dun ask him buy anything now to his birthday if not it will be added to the price tag of his... then i realise that his Zen is also going to spoil... had problems with the earpiece connective part too... our both Zen is going to spoil le lor... so too bad... looking around for new ones.. my wish list now is to get a mp3 but dunno what to get.. i dun need mp4... useless for me... too much a luxury le... heehee...

3pm reached so i went to teach for half an hour.. then after that meet him back.. went to buy nail polish.. and went around finding this stupid toe divider or watever u call it... took us like 1/2 hour to find lor... stupid.. then went home without coffeebean... maybe next time..

now home... didn't make a wasted trip to somewhere.. good sia... and dinner is already settled.. as in there are things to eat so not so bad.. heheee... will start my practice and hopefully can last till tonight..

some pictures again...




see the two pictures below??? one is when we were there just seated... then the next one we finish the food le.. but i suggest baby to finish reading his comics.. at least when he's home he wont read it.. smart right?? heehee. . it was filled with ppl (look at the back seats).. remember i was there drinking the plain water...when baby was reading his comics....nice to just seat there and see him...

babyfen woke up at 5:20 PM

2nd update

think i'm dead.. dun intend to pass exam again... yup.. wat lightning wont strike 3 times at the same place is bull shit... i think i will be the unlucky one le.. practice just now.. realli cannot make it sia... wonder how to make it in front of two ang mo... and they are like so damn strict in marking or watever so...

its like other ppl can easily pass one time but i can't...sianz.. something is terriblly wrong with me.. my attitude in practicing and all those things that tag along... hopefully tml will be a better day.. if not 12 more days or even 12 more months wont even help...

just a short while from just now.. baby managed to go out to his friend's house for short soccer.. EPL Starts tonight.. and he also managed to test drive a new car.. which is PORSCHE>. sia la... envy sia... i also want to try drive or even sit inside.. he went to his rich friend's house .. gto invited.. dunno for what purpose also... wanted to tag along but all guys.. so never mind la.. lazy to go out also.. tml still got class... sianz... power car by the way.. ex also ... rich ppl is always rich ppl... wat to do wat to do..


below are some of the cards i got for baby.. i dun remember so little onli.. but onli managed to take these photos when i was bored at baby's house flipping through his things while he enjoy his game...hehee..








below the "card" was made by me.. wanted to imitate those old ppl bamboo kind of thingy.. but hor the space too big.. so turn out not very nice... heehee... but was fun making it.. it always is sweet when u make anything for ur loved ones...

babyfen woke up at 11:14 PM

updates

nothing much lately... practice as usual with some slacking here and there.. missed two or three days of practice le... sianz...

ohya.. something happened when i was going off the carpark at northpoint.. wonder what's up with ppl nowadays.. so rude lor... i was out then the car in front keep on pressing the button for dunno wat for... when the barrier is up and he can move off.. so thought he didn't know about the barrier.. so i give a very friendly horn.. those short types one.. and waited patiently... but he still keep on pressing and pressing... thinking he wants to get receipt to claim or watever so ba.. but wat for.... dunno la.. then he finally move off and he gave me his middle finger through the rear mirror... what's that for sia??? stupid ASSHOLE~!~!~! hope he clash his car man... if not bang ppl's car also can.. then have to pay lost of $$$ for it..

now at home... supposed to practice piano.. but bro watching show.. probably waiting for high school musical to show on disney channel.. he watched it before but think its realli the SHOW of the time now.. everyone is like talking about it... my students also.. all talking about it also... keep on asking whether got scores or not also.. must try to find fast.. if not kena bug by them...

babyfen woke up at 7:12 PM

photos

that's me.. feeling excited about the fireworks when baby came to fetch me.. hehee..





























that's the fireworks we saw.. quite nice but too bad the tree and sound onli... next time i shall find other ppl go... already found a few... hopefully its not canceled next year ba..


















that's the ritz carlton that we took pictures at.. see how small baby's face is?? so cute lor.. and my face is just the opposite.. so sad... heehee... lighting not very good.. looks very bright...

babyfen woke up at 12:39 AM

slacked today...

today is total slack.... supposed to have class from 4 to 10pm but two was cancel by my students not me o... so only from 8 to 10pm.. that left me free from 11 to 7pm... wanted to go home at around 3 pm to practice my piano.. but didn't bare to leave baby.. was at his house from 11am... so stayed there.. frankly speaking is i can't bare his bed... his bed so comfy lor.. so i just slept all the way from 3 to 6pm... think his mom sure think i'm a bum... and so baby played his game from 3 to 6pm.. hehee...

felt very blessed for baby's mom treating me like that... i reached his house early.. was supposed to ta bao breakfast for him.. but blur me left my phone at his house so couldn't call him.. so thought go back first and see wat he want then i go out buy again.. well.. as usual lazy to go out... so just slack... then i went to his kitchen.. and there his mom was like ... take and eat these buns first later then i cook lunch for you all... i was like so pai seh lor... call me da xiao jie or wat... cos its not my kitchen so i wouldn't dare to mess up her kitchen too.. if its like my kitchen i would have cooked myself... and she even made a cup of milo for me lor... then she was like "this weihao ah.. breakfast never think wat to eat.. also never care about you need to eat one.. " poor baby was been scolded for not giving me things to eat.. while i was the one supposed to get breakfast.. heehee.. then she cooked lunch.. spagetti.. ate it yesterday le.. today still eat.. but never mind.. different taste... i wont get sick of it too.. not like baby.. he dont like to eat spaghetti that much... he say next time just cook for him 10 bacons and fish and porridge or rice can le.. good sia.. all so easy to cook one.... good... after lunch... slack awhile watching show.. the 9pm show.. recorded one.. not too bad la.. but see already also scared.. no $$ no talk...

then tired me.. and lazy me.. wouldn't want to go home.. so i sleep lor.. my usual hobby... then sleep wake up le.. eat dinner.. such a pig sia.. good and easy to feed next time.. hehee... after that went to teach my night class... and here i am... going to sleep soon...

15 more days and i slack like shit today.. wat's happening?? kena kind of scolded by one of my friend saying.. left onli two more weeks wo.. still dun want to practice ah... if i fail i deserve it... heehee.. aiya.. sianz...

today found some shocking news around me... not planning to state wat is it... but reali i'm just too innocent to think that ppl behave themselves... little that i know they are all havoc ppl... hmm.. actually shall not classify as havoc... just normal ppl trying to pass their lives to the nicest and sweetest way... maybe i am the mountain tortoise here... heheee..

got a sad news... was arranged that on my exam day baby would fetch me to the place and wait for me one... but now he kena this dunno wat anniversary thingy in army.. so he have to go.. cannot escaped somemore.. and its like 2 to 7pm.. and my exams is like 1.30pm and after that was planning to catch movie or go out with him and have fun...so now i'm left alone to go there again... probably ask my friend accompany me.. see how.. and any volunteers?? preferbably can drive one... i will provide car and parking coupon... so the main thing u have to do is drive me there.. at heartland mall and wait for me.. willing that is.. and after that we can go shopping (if girls).. if guy.. i'll have lunch with you... which i doubt any guy would do that for me... except baby who's been forced by me.. heehee.e....

babyfen woke up at 12:06 AM

safe and sound..

everything kinds of getting in back to normal... think its my bad... but glad that everything's cool...

went out with baby on saturday after my classes at like 6.30pm... in a way i still think luckily we drove... cos nowadays i dun like the feeling of squeezing mrt with the others.. especially after a good night out.. was planning to go marina sqaure to make my ZEN... and its officially un repairable cos it cos $138 to change the parts... i might as well get a new one... and baby suggested to get iPod better.. shall ssee when i have the extra money to spend ba... thought that reaching 7pm at suntec area wouldn't be much of a jam... didn't expect it was like to make a around suntec to marina which normally dont take more than 10 mins.. it took like half an hour to do so... well.. spent a bomb on parking our cars but at least we got wat we wanted... we wanted to park in marina sqaure.. apparently its full like shit.. so we were at the entrance of Ritz Carlton and asked the person in charge whether we can park inside.. so he say only for guest unless you want to take the Valet Parking.. which cost $10.. so we were like.. aiya.. forget it lor.. just pay.. so in we went... good service sia.. the first hotel i goes to that helps you open the door.. and we didn't know how to walk to marina sqaure.. so this lady staff walked us all the way there.. so nice sia..and they were like smiling all the way.. and making sure you are walking the correct way.. as in got pillar they direct you to walk infront of it instead of behind it..which i normally likes to do...

so off we went to marina.. it was packed like hell.. got some Tamiya demo show going on there.. now then i know Tamiya cars racing is an expensive hobby... so enquire about my ZEN then thinking wat to eat as we were hungry... so thought ta bao things to go esplanade that side to eat... called my bro he said he need food too.. so ta bao for him also... then we reached Carl's Jr.. sia la... long queue sia.. it was realli very long... queue for half an hour before getting our food. .it was like 8.30pm already and the fireworks start at 9pm.. so went over quickly.. and managed to find my bro and had our dinner there while sitting down... didn't take much pictures cos my camera was cannot captured dark places.. the place we went was filled with ppl sitting down on the grass.. it was like... packed very packed.... the fireworks was nice.. but a tree was there blocking our view.. so it was like half nice.. think next year if have i have to go with other ppl.. cos i just realised that baby don't realli fancy fireworks that much.. i was on the verge of disappointment when i see the jam and feeling moody.. and he was like.. never watch never mind.. and when we were watching.. he was like ok onli.. no need to find very good places... just sit somewhere can see can already... so next year if they never cancel i shall go with my bro provided he doesnt have any gf yet.. heheee...

after fireworks.. we made our way back to watch the Tamiya demo session.. baby was like.. "good, it shall be my next hobby if i have the money"... heeeee.. hows that eh.. we decided to stay till around 10 plus then head home cos the road outside will be jam like shit... but when we left at around 10 plus.. the roads are still jam very badly.. so just take our time to go back lor.. reached home at around 11 plus... and slept...

sunday didn't do much.. went over old house to do some things... late afternoon went over baby house to slack... real slack..think i seriously need to build up my stamina on reading books or doing work.. last time can do straight for a long period of time and wont feel tired.. now is like 2, 3 pages want to sleep le.. heehee.. went to borrow DVD to watch also.. INSIDE MAN.. interesting show and realli brilliant robbery attempt.. smart ppl smart plot and smart movie but was a bit confused when watching it.. cos i'm still a bit stupid in seeing these smart plots movie...

17 more days left to exams... its realli scary what i can achieved these few days... very worried.. hopefully everything would be fine.. i dun want to fail again and i can't afford to... dunno how to answer to so many ppl.. luckily the good thing is that i'm paying for myself.. hmmm.. comes to think of it. i pass the other grade exams with my mom paying for it.. and now i'm paying for myself and i always fail... could it be a reserve effect that cos i'm paying it i dun mind??? hmm.... maybe i can ask baby to pay this time... heheee.. worth a try isn't it??? heheee...



picture taken at my student house while waiting for him to get ready.. bo liao la... nothing to do..

babyfen woke up at 11:23 AM

nothing is going to be alright...

these two pictures are only part of a present that i gave baby... its a scrap book that i made myself.. with photos of ours inside.. think total got quite alot of photos... didn't count how many.. come to think of it.. always do all these things also a bit redundant.. cos i think he doesn't read them into details too....
so probably next time just buy useful things can le.. no need to spend time doing up all these things and cracking my head for designs too...




















21 more days to my doom day... wonder whether i can pass that... ya... i know i will complain even after my exams... can i just be like smart in one day or wat??? if not i dun know how to handle sia...

nowadays.. something is not right.. i also dunno how to describe... is it me myself my own thinking or wat.. i also dunno... maybe just have to avoid it onli.. if not sure i think will create more problems only...

think i'll upload the photos using the blogspot one ba.. lazy to get the disc from baby.. or should i say is i always forget to...

this photo taken at my friend's chalet.. her celebration for birthday... ok la... not a very nice time there.. but neither is it bad wo..

below the box is her present.. its a very big box... with a bag inside.. compared size... box bigger than present la.. then didn't know wat to fill up with so bought a cushion very NDP.. and lollipops as directed by her... hope she likes them.. haven had a chance to chat with her yet...

come to think of it.. i know her for like hmm... i also dunno wo... cos she's actually daughter of my mom's friend..dunno how long they known each other.. but think also got more than 15 years le ba...so considered is child hood friends....

oh ya.. did i mentioned?? i went to do my pedicure again.. heheee.. this time the person help me choose colour.. kind of like it.. but my bro says its plain.. should do nail art.. i dun realli trust the person there.. so next month when i have the money i shall do classic pedicure and nail art for my two toe... that would be just great...


and went a little shopping for my exam wear... saw this very nice and smart looking dress.. dunno whether appropriate or not.. but i only know that its not cheap.. its like $79.. ex lor.. probably one of these days find some shopping companion go far east and look look... more variety at least.... if not worst come to worst... just wear my pants with some nice top can le...


oh ya... checked my past entries and realise that i did not have any photos for one month~!~!~! that's realli horrible and borring to those who read my blog.. (if there's any).... heheee.. sorry ppl... will try to post more picture.s. but normally i'm always out teaching.. so dun have time to wander too many places.... and baby dont like to take pictures too.. so its either pictures of myself and myself... heheee.... my photo in my handphone. is 1160 as in sequential numbering for the picture... and i think like wat my bro say.. about half of them.. or maybe three quarter of them are pictures of myself... heheee... how's that eh... plain vain.... plain vain....

someone ask me out and i decline due to certain reasons that i dun think its appropriate to say...

babyfen woke up at 11:31 PM

lazy days = failing days..

i deserve to fail.. yup.. scold me.. nag me... beat me.. watever u want.. just realli predict that i wont be able to pass my exams.. call me stupid or wat to waste my money or watever shit... not that i dun care.. there's realli something wrong with my brain..

plan was to practice piano but till now no movement yet.. becos of some reasons... sianzzz....

these few days... becoming very moody.. due to some problems faced... dunno when it will be ok.. but dun think so soon also...



Some outdated photos.. this was taken when we were out shopping for christine present.. heehee.. always had a fun time going out with her.. gossips and more gossips.. shopping and more shopping.. and i've already set another date outing with her.. heehee.. so pls.... i'm not free on sept 8th... heehee...

dun have my usual photo upload server.. so use blogspot one.. testing la.. if good.. then next time just use this one can le.. if not have to resize or watever so...



this photo is taken after i framed it up.. my latest project for baby.. surprisingly. .it turns out not too bad.. will try to finish up my big project as soon as i can.. have a few on hand... hopefully not too lazy to make.. heheee... this time the framing cost more than usual... dunno is aunty anyhow say the price or wat...

babyfen woke up at 3:15 PM

been long...

although checking the past entry it was like 1st august... felt ages since i updated.. been realli very busy running up and down these few days... have to rush in between time to places everyday... didn't have proper eating time also...

bad news is that... my exam letter is here.. its going to be 1st sept.. i think i will be dead.. my friend did mentioned that lighting would never struck the same place 3 times.. think this will be the only time it will did...

photoshop still not in so no photos.. my camera like got one hundread plus photos waiting for me to upload.. took alot of bo liao pictures here and there... so hopefully can upload those that are more interesting...

another bad news... had a realli bad quarrel with baby lately... not becos of anyone else.. becos of my mood... shit sia.. nearly fall out very badly.. luckily everything is well now.. hopefully it will not happen again... definitely not something i would do again.. but i still think silence is absolutely golden..

babyfen woke up at 12:02 PM

photos in but not uploaded

photos are finally in my computer.. but the problem is that i dun have photoshop so wont be able to make adjustments to the size.. so have to wait another time.. and i'm going to be very busy from now onwards... tml whole day would be out.. hmm.. actually not realli.. gotta to return home by 6pm for classes... then out again for night classes..

just recieved a notice from parents that they would like their son to take exams next year feb instead of july... its kind of stress for me.. cos its like the student onli picking up now after learning for like 1 year??? at least now i dun feel that bad cos lessons are easy to pass now.. so not so bad... hopefully i can push him to take and pass the exams with good results.. becos the parents actually mentioned that they dun mind their son to fail... aiya...all parents always say like that one lor..

something happen recently that i dun wish to talk but its kind of affecting me... hopefully everything would be just fine... if not.. i think i would be dead.... real dead...

oh ya.. wat's wrong with ppl ah.. dunno whether i mentioned this before... about the incident of my bro's gf things stolen.. and handphone stolen but the other things stolen... am i too honest or wat??? why would ppl always think to take advantage of another person??? y would this happen?? i seriously cannot understand.... just treat this - if you found something (say a wallet or handphone) would you return to the owner or just take watever u want and then leave it somewhere for others to pick up?? i would definitely return to the owner... but all says that i'm kind of stupid or watever so.. just take la... free one wat.. but maybe its also becos of the mindset of ppl here... its like ppl help you keep and return to you.. the least you could do is say thank you sincerely instead of like not appreciating.. probably is this reason that ppl wouldn't want to lose out in taking "free" things ba...

i just learnt something new in writing a cheque today.. call me stupid or wat la hor.. i'm 22 this year only to learn tat ppl would change the cheque amount.. i was helping my mom writing a cheque.. then my bro commented that i should write the amount as near as possible to the $ sign.. looking like "$xxxx" instead of "$ xxxx" if not ppl would just change it easily.. see this is the same issue.. why would ppl think of doing such things in the first place if they know its wrong??? can't they just be like honest or wat?? wat's wrong with that sia.....

but complaining all these.. true enough i was only not very honest... especially in sec schools... in TEST that is.. cheating here and there i dun deny that i cheated in school exams.... but that doesn't make me go around stealing ppl's things or taking things that shouldn't be be mine in the first place... wat ever it is.. sure must educate my child next time properly...

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