well my ear is giving me problems again.. that's y i'm here blogging instead of teaching.. cancel my night class just to give my ears a rest... hopefully by tml it will be ok then i can start practicing again.. if not.. friday would be gone... but wat teacher say is right.. wat u have practice u have already done.. there's nothing u can do le in such a short time.. u cant change any thing big.. just go exams and play to 100 percent and the rest is depending on examiners judement le.. whether they like it or not.. there's nothing u can control.. in a way.. becos music is subjective... diufferent ppl different view.. some might think u are good.. some might think u are average.. some might think you are bad... so shall see how on friday.. hopefully no pressure = no sweat...
something took place recently... not to say its bad or wat.. but it did got me into thinking... and i responding too much to baby le... think he also dun like... too much talk about it... shall keep quiet about it next time.. but i know i'm not this type of person.. i am also human... a girl into relationship.. so therefore easily worried about other girls getting close to their boyfriend.. but this case is different... i was the one getting into them in the first place.. maybe everything would be different from then..
so these few days i shall try to keep quiet and grumble to myself about it.. cannot say too much cos i dun want another friendship to be broken... but some times when u heard "how come you talk like her?" being said to you instead of saying that to other girl... you would feel strange.. or should i say i would feel strange.. but never mind.. i have faith and i believe nothing will go wrong as i put in my part... the other thing i'm worried now is another person.. hopefully no intentions by him.. if not everything would be just as messy....
thinking back i think everyone whether guy or girl would want a very close friend irregardless or sex too... like girl can have a very close boy-friend and vice versa... just hope that everything would be ok... its been long and maybe something to boost our relationship would be better...
do you take someone in considering both whether is she/he good to you and to your family?? or someone that is good to you can le?? wonder whether i'm worth the both.. cos who dun want to be both.. to be loved by him and his family...
yes i do say i dun mind this and that... but i also like to talk about things i feel... so now i understand that guys are also difficult to understand... i want to say the things i feel about.. then you would say i think too much.. then if i never say anything.. then you would say that i never tell you... so isn't this the same like girls?? so pls dun keep on saying guys and girls are different... they are all human and have the same way to ppl too...
just got to know that another couple friend that i know is breaking up.. or broke up le i also dunno... is that realli so difficult to live together and spend their time together.. maybe not meeting ur partner everyday is a good thing.. even after marriage i think days should be given to each other to spend time with their friend... that's y i envy my bro and da sao.. although some problems might arise but they still managed to go over it and have quality time for themselves and individually...
*above post is a one-time feeling post.. does not reflect what i think in long term.. might change for the better or the worst.. watever it is i will face it bravely....
babyfen woke up at 8:52 PM
GREETINGS !