still the same

i realise i'm still the same.. lazy as before.. dunno whether its becos of the time of my work or just becos its in my blood... so hard to get myself to do something before hand.. always last min then do one... sianz...

last weekend went to ikea with baby.. heehee.. got ourselves quite a few things to put at the back of Combo.. i shall now call it Xiao Hong.. should i?? if baby dun like i will change it again.. hehee.. bought two big pillows and a curtain.. planing to get another small pillow.. think wait till the tampines IKEA to open so we can shop there and get ourselves free IKEA's Friends member card.. next time buy furniture got discount.. heheee.. my wallet got too many discount cards le... hehee..

later got class but coming back home again.. so tampines and come back.. so sianz...
maybe go out shopping for grocery.. need to buy things to fill my refrigerator... have to if not like today eat noodles so eggs... so sad...

this sunday have a PHS runner gathering.. dunno whether to go or not.. becos its the batch before me... dunno can remember anyone or not.. but main thing is to go and see Mrs Lim la.. my coach last time... shall see how.. if go.. baby would be sad again.. cos he doesn't get the chance to go... or should i say he wont go and then we would not be able to go out or see each other.. seems like time is realli limited for both of us and myself...

too concern about the other half is not a good thing.. must learn how to balance..

babyfen woke up at 2:09 PM

photos again..EVC 5AD

heehee... found photos to post again.. so came here and disturb ur reading.. pls read the previous post too~!~!heehe...

btw.. inbetween the last post and this post.. though is like few hours.. had a nice time first swimming with my student (should be considered playing water la.. heheee..) then after that went over old house for dinner... nice time chatting and watching TV with my parents.. its been like months i've seen them.. so not filial right?? shall try to make more time to go over and eat.. think i'm the most talkative in the family lor... i enjoyed myself.. and ya.. went to make my contact lens cos it's finished.. last pair wearing now.. and made a box for didi... next time then see how he wears contact lens.. must be look blur blur one lor...

first time i see a club so organised lor.. or maybe cos this is the first time i in this kind of club too.. hehee... they even managed to invite the ppl from Children's Cancer Foundation (CCF) to come and have a gatheering too... i got two organisers from them.. nice~!~! heehee.. played games.. JENGA and then BBQ with BUFFET then a Lucky Draw with very attractice prizes.. we went off early to catch the big match between MAN U and LIVERPOOL so we didnt win any thing.. .hehee... the big prize i think was a DVD player and recorder.. cool sia..~!~!~! and it was held at a CONDO.. which looks like hotel by the way...


thats us at the buffet...


some friends we know from the club.. good way to know ppl.. and the thing is that they talk about mostly the same thing.. their VAN and modifications.. and also.. the thing about club is that.. i only know some by their real name.. others i only know their nickname in forum.. hehee...


Posing for the camera.. me and Jenny (just married)



Smiley and Mambo *friendly and sweet couple*


Daniel with CCF ppl



Alvin and eh dunno the other guy's name but funny guy..

babyfen woke up at 10:56 PM

baby's birthday celebration

past few days was very busy.. teaching and more teaching.. outing and more outing.. or was it sleeing?? heehee.. went teaching in the morning for baby's birthday while he's at home.. reached his house only at around 1 plus.. then i've already decided where to dine in that night.. but we were like debating whether is it worth it or not... so was still comtemplating.. but i've already booked the place and very interested to go and see how's is it like... so decided in the end to catch a movie at the Cathay and go over SwissOtel for our dinner..

went over to watch The Guardian @ The Cathay.. didn't know it would take such a long time but ok la.. late a bit for the dinner but they never give up our seats so not so bad... the show is nice... i would say more to the better side... story line very good but always good guy die one lor.. so sad...

went to Equinox for our dinner.. its actually at the top of Swissotel.. 70th floor.. baby is still amazed how the lift can go straight up all the way.. keep on saying we have to change lift at around 30 plus floor.. so funny.. reached there... alot of ang mo.. but very sad thing is that we didn't get to sit directly beside the window.. i think they wouldn't give it to me too.. cos we are realli kind of a bit out of place there.. as most of the ppl are like either family or ang mo.. or rich ppl.. so maybe they acct like rich ppl la... i dressed nicely for that place cos didn't want to be so sloppy.. so did baby... had our dinner.. nice sia... kind of too ex.. though the food is nice.. luckily baby like the food too.. cos he was complaining about the price.. so if the food not nice then everything is down the drain.. so consider that this risk i took was still worth it... had a nice dinner.. cos explored abit of the place.. even the toilet looks so posh sia... think we sat there and ate like about 1 hour plus close to 2 hours.. the thing i like about fine dining is that you can just sit down talk about things and enjoy the food and ambience.. nice experience but wont be experiencing it in any time soon ba... like wat baby say. next time we strike 4D or TOTO then go again.. hehee...

this is the view we had for dinner.. but didn't bring along camera so used baby's camera...


our future house should have this.. all wines kept in place.. nice~!~!


one lady took for us.. the best is this.. cos not very skillful in camera taking for that lady..


the one we took ourselves.. like in our own wine place hor... (my camera)



another wine place picture.(baby's camera).. see the difference..



this sofa was placed outside the toilet. in front of the wine place.. nice~!~! act like tai tai.. as though (in my dreams maybe)


baby's collection of hard liqour.. heheee...


that's not all the pictures we took... but some blur blur one cos the camera not very good for night shot... so be it la... update again on my life another time... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY~!

babyfen woke up at 5:06 PM

TML IS BABY's BIRTHDAY~!~!

yup... get that title in ur head loud and clear.. its baby birthday and the good part is its a public holiday again.. and the worst part is that.. i have to teach~!~!~! horrible sia...

decided to take two students on this particular day cos i know baby would be out celebrating with his friends till late night tonight.. so teach in the morning tml think he still sleeping.. i hope la.. no choice.. one student is becos she's having exams this sat.. then the other one just happily think that i would be fine with changing time.. but never mind..decided not to teach this person after his exams.. good man...

no plans yet tml.. dunno where to go.. its not a weekend.. so nothing much to do and not to stay out late also.. next day got to work... double sianz.. now at baby's home... with him out working la... waiting for time to pass so i can go for my class... heheee... 6pm then start.. hopefully my car be back by then.. shall rest in the mean time.. nothing to do.. as i have done my research le... halfway i guess...

just went for the EVC 5th anniversary thingy yesterday at someone's condo.. SUNHAVEN.. dunno whose house till now.. baby didn't bother to ask so neither should i be so KPO... but its a nice place.. got skate board park and one seems like private pool (those with jazcuzzi thingy)... cool man.. but the house looks kind of small. then we saw a very big penthouse (dunno consider or not ) across the condo we're at... good sia.. can see their two storey with the staircase... looks so posh and nice... wonder when then can stay in this type of house... not the money that counts.. its the maintenance that hurts... $$$$ where to find... u think it will drop from the sky one day??? even if it did.. u dare to take? ??

babyfen woke up at 4:31 PM

should i.. should i not??

today just went out with some poly friends.. yup... long long long time never go out with them le.. but only choose to go out with those closer ones... went to Thai Express to eat and i ate very bland things... sianz sia.. but no choice la.. cos having throat pain now.. for a very long time le. .monday will be the time i go see doctor.. stubborn so have to suffer le lor...

heard some news about friend... she broke up with her bf.. so wat's new?? i think i'm used to it le to the extend that i dun feel shock at all.. in this case i kind of feel happy for her cos things haven been going well with her ex bf... now she have found new love... good for her...

wanted to go Holland V pub with one of my friend... and going with his friends who are girls... called baby to ask whether he would be back early but becos he's at Boat Quay... dun think he would be back early.. so i thought can hang out around the same time then can go back the same time.. but in the end i went back... to his house and wait for him lor.. so here i am waiting.. wonder what time he will be back.. shall watch spongebob while waiting.. heheee...

was doing some research on my theory stuff... started a new class on theory so that i can teach better... hopefully i will be able to learn things... the teacher is very knowledgable and demanding.. dunno whether can get back to the way i am towards studying...

tml is PUBLIC HOLIDAY~!~!~!!!~ super yaynesss cos i no need to teach.. but have to teach on sunday.. so sianz... but never mind.. tml can get one day off... so shall try to enjoy it... rest rest rest.. goood good good...

*gone for sponggebobing...**

babyfen woke up at 2:00 AM

beaten by stress or haze???

yesterday was teaching until halfway when my headache comes again.. and there i was trying to finish my class and go home.. managed to drive home again... luckily no accident... sianz sia...

went home straight to bed.. cos my head is very dizzy... then slept and thinking everyting would be better.. woke up today indeed feeling better and then i went to teach... but my headache came back again.. today not as bad... dunno whether is stress or not enough sleep or the haze making me like that.. used to be strong one.. but now... dunno.. maybe i would be beaten and just be gone like that one day... who knows.. nobody..

still thinking whether to cancel my class all the way to night class at night.. cos i dunno how much i can endure.. and doctors keep telling me is stress and not enough sleep.. i've not been sleeping late that much lately le wo...stress not possible leh.. cos my exams over already wat... maybe its just tired that everday i need to teach and prepare classes... sianz.. y other piano teachers dun have such problems.. think i should avoid going out too much these few days.. but how is that possible.. i've decided sat not to teach... cos i realli need the rest.. moreover.. next tuesday is baby's birthday.. have to kicking alive to be able to celebrate his birthday with him...

terribly need to sleep the whole day straight.. but i doubt its going to do any thing to help.. cos the more u sleep.. the tired u'll be.. stupid haze.. shooooooooo~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!

babyfen woke up at 10:48 AM

finally a moment of peace..

after such hectic days.. i finally have some moment of peace.. at home that is... and nobody is home... finally sia... just came home from morning class after going out at 9am... but too bad this moment doesn't last long and i will be out again at 7 plus for another class... it seems like forever no end one.. for my class la... tml also not much break.. but better than today... and becos theory exam is next saturday for some of my students.. i'm beginning to worry for their work sianz... why do i choose this profession... sianz.. .endure better...

heehee.. didn't realise after my previous post.. some kind souls went to confront baby about it.. heee.. i'm not saying its his fault.. so pls dun blame him or wat.. cos i know he's already very stress.. so ppl just remember.. read and forget.. thanks o... heheee..

my ear problems are back again.. think is stress + not enough sleep again.. but getting the hang of the problem.. so sometimes if u talk to me and i never reply not i dao ah.. its becos i realli can't hear properly.. heehee...

today went to meet baby for lunch... it seems like he's realli very stress about his work.. more stress than mine... and he seems to be giving up le.. meaning.. trying to change job... shall see ba... just hope he will find a job that he likes and do well... always think that i too BM le.. i think shall try to avoid talking too much... hopefully things will be better ba...

so fast october le... remember ppl.. next tuesday is public holiday and its BABY"S BIRTHDAY.. nope he never ask me to advertise here.. but good to post here so that those who read and prepare some presents for him to cheer him up.. hehee... i dunno wat he needs as i still haven think wat to get for him too... shall see ba...

nothing much le ba... still very forgetful... go cook my dinner le..

babyfen woke up at 6:05 PM

monday again..

now i dread monday from coming.. firstly becos i have to wait like 5 days or so to be able to see baby.. its kind of sad... cos with the little time we have together.. it seems we tend to quarrel more...

last weekend.. think is sat went Vivocity with baby and meet sks and liner... didn't do much.. just help liner shop around for his working clothes... bad things happen there and i'm still very puzzled why it happened in the first place...

think ppl who knows my relationship.. i tend to be very impatience.. and tends to shout without thinking... cos when baby was driving into the car park.. i saw a sign that points in the different direction that we are travelling from...so i commented "you sure you going the correct way??" so he tried to slow down and keep on asking me... "wat? i cannot go this way ah?? wat thing wat thing?? " so yes i was pissed off so i just shouted "nothing"... apparently.. it bring across to him as a very angry gesture and so when we alighted after parking.. i wanted to walk to the escalator.. which to me is very obvious that's the only way.. so i walked slowly towards.. then trying to catch where baby is going at that time... then i turned around and i saw no one... so i quickly walked to the other side of the car and no one again.... i was like on the verge of crying cos it seems like baby was so pissed off with me that he walked away without me.. the problem here is that i dunno where he went to.. at least if i saw him walking in which direction i can just quietly follow behind him... so i tried to stay at the car park and wait for him a while... hoping he would turn back... but waited... waited.. no one appear... so i thought maybe go the shopping centre and find him... upon reaching the centre.. so big sia.. how to find.. so i just try to go to the places like the shops that he wanted to go and see see... but still couldn't find him.. so i couldnt bare walking alone.. i called him... he said he's at second floor.. so i just went around second floor to find him... partly becos i was stubborn to wait for him to find me... found him at one of the shop... i thought we would be ok one.. .but dunno why.... baby pretended nothing has happen... and wanted to talk to me as usual.. of course i'm angry... and realli still trying to figure in my head... " how can he walked away like this and pretend nothing has happen?? " the whole time i was getting more and more angry.. but didn't dare to scold him cos i know initially its my fault...

so there we are.. trying to walk as normal... and went to find sks as he's working there.. and then meet liner to shop for clothes... i haven get my answer yet.. until he say sorry.. ya.. call me stubborn or wat.. he choose not to say anything about the incident so i just keep quiet and figure wat's wrong... now that he choose to comment.. told him how i felt and cried... no la.. not those baby crying so loud.. just weeping... but kind of stupid.. cos its realli just some stupid things that i have done to make him so angry with me...

from now on i must learn to shut my mouth and be a good follower than a leader... i cannot lead as he doesn't like that... i will try to follow... if not days would be hard for us...

babyfen woke up at 1:48 PM

start of something new..

baby started work this monday.. the past monday i meant.. it was like a total different experience together.. now i understand how he withstand all my complains about my work and now he will complain to me about his and i shall be a good listener... but somehow... i think we have to cope with the time that we have.. i've calculated.. we only have like thursday/friday/saturday night and sunday together onli.. u might think its alot.. but its actually very little... well... add on to that.. these two fridays i will be packed with activities.. going out with one of my gf today.. and next week with another group of friends.. never mind i shall keep myself empty after next week... if not i can see more complains coming in le...

baby made his car le... spent quite a alot.. but i think its kind of inevitable.. so no choice lor... wanted to complain something to his mom last night.. but held back cos didn't want baby to feel angry or sad about me... he want to add something to his car and it will cost a bomb.. scolded him.. kind of la.. dun spend this kind of $$$... but comes to think of it.. its just like myself spending for my facials all these.. reduntant to ppl but important to me.. so i thought just let it go.. until the day he cannot tahan the spending.. he will stop.. hopefully la hor... shall see...

that day when baby scratched his car and he was very sad.. so i had free time and went shopping presents for him to cheer him up.. made a very cute comic card for him.. dun intend to post it up.. heee... got him two Spongebob DVD... the parker pen he wanted and two ball point pen and a keychain(old one but wash and wrapped up again).. he was happy to see it so i'm glad it did help to cheer him up...

but poor him yesterday kena scold by customer.. now i understand wat he meant by cannot work for ppl the whole life.. you will be scolded for the whole life... so shall see... maybe few more weeks he will be able to pick up faster ba...

as for me.. the usual... teaching and trying to keep students motivated all the time.. but dunno why.. always tend to fail one... as in not motivated at all.... although students managed to passs with merit or normal pass.. i dun think marks is important in the aspect of learning music... becos the other technical aspect are more important than getting good results.. so let's just hope parents would be more understanding about taking longer time ba...

babyfen woke up at 1:40 PM

all about sad things...

guess wat.. i'm playing sad songs now behind this post.. as in when i'm typing this cos need some mood to be sad before i can blog about all the sad things around me these few days...

first thing first... relationship......
another couple friend of mine broke up.. recently.. the least expected to break up broke up... i'm totally disappointed by the guy... haven had a chance to talk to the girl so dunno the other side of story.. so i shall not blame anyone now..not to mention names as this will make things worst.. whoever knows.. just read and forget... oki??

they are been together for around 2 years.. now i realise something new about them.. that's the reason that they broke up.. but i realli feel that they should try to talk it out.. wat i believe is that as long as there are feelings for each other... its very easy to solve other things.. be it quarrel or how the future lies ahead of them... but now that they are not together i think it will be very hard to continue becos once there's a break everything would never be the same...

wat i dun understand about guys is that.. y do they still want to be friends after the break up.. does that goes to show to everyone else that you are one big heart ppl??? or someone that can easily put down the past behind you.. or you still want to be there to see her happy with another person then you will feel relieved that she's not that hurted by you afterall?? pls guys.. think of the girls... never will girls be able to think that way.. cos girls are the one who put in more effort (speaking of myself and some others i know)... girls are the ones who always support you and do watever you do... so when we learn how to live in ur life.. how u expect us to be the same as a friend to live with u again??? i personally think its totally impossible...

i did discuss some issues with baby recently becos of all the breaking up.. i realli feel that its kind of sad becos i dun understand how ppl can break up just like that and move on... how's that possible??? no matter how years a couple is together.. be it like 1 month, 2 years, 6 years or even 10 years.. i still believe when breaking up... definitely they will be very hurt... i'm not going to ask wat realli happen between them cos its their story to keep.. wat i can do now is try to talk to her as a friend and go out often to think of other things... like that i hope she will heal a little better... at least someone is there for her..

* to her: if you're reading this.. no worries girl.. i wont ask much.. and pls dun feel obligated to tell me... you dun have to.. just keep it with urself.. and throw it away when the time is right.. be it now or in the near future, far far future... i will always be there for you...

* to him: if you're reading this.. although i dun agree with ur actions but that doesn't me i dun care for u as a friend.. just remember that girls are always the one getting hurt most when a relationship doesn't work.. especially when a guy initiates it... take care too...

another sad thing... another couple who broke up recently too...put it simple (girl Ms A. guy Mr B and new guy Mr C.) Ms Afound another guy MrC... well not becos of the Mr C. that she broke up with Mr B.... but watever it is.. its sad to hear that she can just easily move on the other one.. or maybe all along she's already have feelings for Mr C.. if its this case i would be disappointed in Ms A... but as usual.. its not my story so nothing i can comment.. watever i say here is all in my opinion of them.. so pls dun come and curse me about mentioning you all.. the least i do is i dun write ur name.. so pls as usual.. read and forget... even if u ask me who are they.. i will not tell..

so this story.. you might think it contradict with wat i said "girls are always the one getting hurt most and would be able to move on for a long time"... i still believe in my stand.. some girls resort to finding another guy after breaking up with the ex.. its becos they cannot stand the feeling of being alone.. that's y they moved on so fast... its not becos they have forgotten about the ex... its becos they have not forgotten about their ex and want someone to fill in the place... in the end.. its always the girl and the new guy who's going to suffer as the girl is not truly loving the new guy and the new guy is not been treated as the actual boyfriend.. how sad can it be..??

to some guys: pls dun regret after letting go.. cos its all ur fault that you let go in the first place.. you should onli be crying to urself and no one else cos no one would pity you and ask you to chase back the girl...

to some girls: pls dun go and find a guy to substitute in short term.. cos its not as easy as you think.... give urself some time and think carefully wat you should do.. never mind about being lonely cos you will have friends to accompany... never mind if you realli have no friends.. thinking about it alone would be ur own decision also.. at least you wont be influence by friends...

actually every couple would have alot of unhappy things happen one... me and baby no exception.. its just that we dont show to ppl... wat i believe is everything would be able to sort out as long as your faith in urself and the other part.. but maybe becos i hold on strongly to this relationship, that's y i would everything to work out totally... maybe is becos others have no longer the strength to hold on... that's y they let go... i realli cant imagine if i decided to let go wat would become of me and baby.. but i dun want to imagine that.. cos now i still want to hold on... until the day to let go.. then maybe my mindset will change... for now i still want to hold on...

another sad thing is about baby... i also dunno how to console him.. he scratched his baby( his van) today.. very badly.. he's very sad and no mood today.. told him those things that i could console him.. so let's just hope he'll feel better after sending the van to repair... bought him a few things to cheer him up.. hopefully he will feel a little better after seeing them tonight... going to miss him lots...

babyfen woke up at 12:22 PM

Photos yet again

alot things to blog about but no time now.. so let the pictures do the talk... went for friend's wedding.. it was very nice and she looks very pretty and face small small.. nice~!~! didn't do any make up in the morning cos woke up quite late.. hehee.. had fun been the sisters trying to guard the door from the groom... not too bad la.. hehee... quite fun... some stupid things happen in between that's y at night didn't take much pictures.. wasted... and onli baby would know how stupid i am.. hehee... but never mind.. not my wedding.. so its ok.. if its my own wedding.. then.... hmm... i would cry i think...



on the way to the dinner after dolling up... cos doing some walk in for the dinner.. tooo bad... is not walk with baby. .is one of the brothers from the groom side.. .but never mind.. had fun.. becos of that dinner i fell sick... went home with high fever but luckily baby tug me in to bed with medicine before he went out to enjoy himself.. i allowed him to.. cos i know he must be very borring at the dinner and taking care of me too.. so got reward for him. is to go out and have fun with his friends.. hehee...got take must give... one of the picture had me with gold hair.. nope not yet dye my hair.. the sun makes it looks like that one.. nice hor... planning to dye that colour.. shall see how.. one of my friend says quite nice.. but must do highlight a bit more.. hehee.. shall see...

babyfen woke up at 5:46 PM

Photos

Photos spread again.. heheee... quite a while to have photos le.. went out recently alot with baby.. good.. cos he's going to start to find work and no time to meet except like eh.. weekends?? which is like sunday onli.. so sad... but never mind.. we shall find time together..

went to this prata shop along thomson road.. its called Casurina Curry.. (something like that.) we realised that we dun have enough money like onli $4 so dun think we have enough money to eat.. so we just took a risk and we realise that on that street is like most of the restaurants and shops take nets wo.. its like all is like heartland mall.. so there we were like fighting over wat to eat.. (stupid right??).. luckily we settled down at this prata shop.. cos from the picture you see is very posh lor.. kind of steep for the price but nice ambience.. and the food is nice lor.. if u just eat the egg prata one.. its very big consider to outside one.. its like equal to two of the normal you eat outside lor.. so we happily had our dinner.. hehee... quite nice la..


baby acting cool..


me acting cute..



the below photos were taken from the chalet.. my phone was low batt. so didn't take any photos.. so sad... so all these are from baby's one.. which i found only one to post.. so here it is..



below photo taken from baby's MP Anniversary dinner the theme i said was gangster... he said quite fun.. was it??? cannot remember also.. heheee




these two pictures taken in the car.. forget where we go le.. think is go out eat ba... cannot remember also. hehee... nowadays very forgetful.. i like the picture he took for me.. nice.. cos its blur i think.. always take blur picture very nice one..





below photo taken at bobby's birthday dinner.. at sakura.. got other 3 girls.. but didn't want to post.. cos i look fat.. hehee.. its always like that.. ppl always take the nicer side for ppl to see.. not the ugly side... so be it la hor..



nothing much these few days.. trying to cope with my work.. kind of stress and tired.. been reading a book on stress.. titled "the Stress Cure".. seems very helpful but whether i follow the help is another thing... hee.. shall see ba.. must start to stay happy so that i would not have any weight gain..

heard some not so good news about some friends.. don't want to elaborate.. but its the last time i would thought would happen.. so shall see how is it ba.. i dun want to see more of this kind of things... i dun like it totally...

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