now i dread monday from coming.. firstly becos i have to wait like 5 days or so to be able to see baby.. its kind of sad... cos with the little time we have together.. it seems we tend to quarrel more...
last weekend.. think is sat went Vivocity with baby and meet sks and liner... didn't do much.. just help liner shop around for his working clothes... bad things happen there and i'm still very puzzled why it happened in the first place...
think ppl who knows my relationship.. i tend to be very impatience.. and tends to shout without thinking... cos when baby was driving into the car park.. i saw a sign that points in the different direction that we are travelling from...so i commented "you sure you going the correct way??" so he tried to slow down and keep on asking me... "wat? i cannot go this way ah?? wat thing wat thing?? " so yes i was pissed off so i just shouted "nothing"... apparently.. it bring across to him as a very angry gesture and so when we alighted after parking.. i wanted to walk to the escalator.. which to me is very obvious that's the only way.. so i walked slowly towards.. then trying to catch where baby is going at that time... then i turned around and i saw no one... so i quickly walked to the other side of the car and no one again.... i was like on the verge of crying cos it seems like baby was so pissed off with me that he walked away without me.. the problem here is that i dunno where he went to.. at least if i saw him walking in which direction i can just quietly follow behind him... so i tried to stay at the car park and wait for him a while... hoping he would turn back... but waited... waited.. no one appear... so i thought maybe go the shopping centre and find him... upon reaching the centre.. so big sia.. how to find.. so i just try to go to the places like the shops that he wanted to go and see see... but still couldn't find him.. so i couldnt bare walking alone.. i called him... he said he's at second floor.. so i just went around second floor to find him... partly becos i was stubborn to wait for him to find me... found him at one of the shop... i thought we would be ok one.. .but dunno why.... baby pretended nothing has happen... and wanted to talk to me as usual.. of course i'm angry... and realli still trying to figure in my head... " how can he walked away like this and pretend nothing has happen?? " the whole time i was getting more and more angry.. but didn't dare to scold him cos i know initially its my fault...
so there we are.. trying to walk as normal... and went to find sks as he's working there.. and then meet liner to shop for clothes... i haven get my answer yet.. until he say sorry.. ya.. call me stubborn or wat.. he choose not to say anything about the incident so i just keep quiet and figure wat's wrong... now that he choose to comment.. told him how i felt and cried... no la.. not those baby crying so loud.. just weeping... but kind of stupid.. cos its realli just some stupid things that i have done to make him so angry with me...
from now on i must learn to shut my mouth and be a good follower than a leader... i cannot lead as he doesn't like that... i will try to follow... if not days would be hard for us...
babyfen woke up at 1:48 PM
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