maybe i know why some things happen the way it should... it seems like its more important and something that he wants to do by himself..
cos i think it matters to him.. maybe he treasure wat he's facing.. maybe he wants to stay that way...
am i wrong to think the way i'm thinking now??? just cant help it becos i just want to be part of it.. which i cant so can't help to think more than it supposed to be..
learning how to give is something that i have problems with.. i'm one who's always used to taking without thinking.. so now i know how hard it is to give... freedom always seems good to anyone.. and i found out that i'm out who is very fickled minded.. when time is not given to me.. i would grumble.. when time is given more to me.. i would also grumble... how to satisfy someone like me?? i believe its very difficult.. even me myself having problems to satisfy myself... how would i allow other ppl to do so??
maybe i can try to give more than taking.. would that be good for me??? would i be able to do that?? i dunno and i maybe wants to try.. maybe onli..
some friend of mine commented that she always thought i'm the one giving in.. but everyone.. yes everyone reading this is wrong.. becos i'm always not the one giving in... i either take or throw... y throw?? cos its like i dun give i would always keep inside myself and try to swallow down and dun care about it.. no matter how hard it is or not healthy it is.. this is me..
just something i need to know.. did u try??? did u try asking whether would it be ok?? did u try making me part of it?? or did u want to be it by yourself.... ?? i think even if i know the answer i would be sad or angry about it.. so llike wat others might say.. just forget about it.. maybe i should....
i thnk i should keep myself busy by doing alot of things.. just found out.. as long as i'm alone.. i would think too many things that i dun want.. and maybe will result in bad things.. so be it ba...
do i really want it to be this way?? do i realli want things to be kept this way... do i still want to continue.. would letting go be difficult?? would it be wrong to let go?? or is there a wrong or right way to describe this kind of things??? or am i making a big hole out of nothing??
am i?? pls give me some guidance..
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