When is the best time to let go??

knowing when to let go and how to let go was never easy. Nobody said its easy. I believe its just a phase that makes u grow even stronger. What things to consider before letting go? what things to take care after letting go? nobody is able to tell you anything. The only help you can get is from within yourself. Once you know its time to let go, you should be brave and let go totally or bit by bit until totally..

Sometimes we ppl are like that..
- when we lose something we then realise that it was never meant to be lost.
- when we know that its painful to hang on, we will always hang on to the very hope we have inside us.
- when we know that after letting go, its so easy to turn back and we did
- when we know that even if we turn back we will be painful, but still we did..
- when we know that letting go the other person would not be bothered and in fact maybe happier without us

its all about human nature.. nothing that we can do to make it better.. in fact we always make it worst..

so have i answered when is the best time to let go?? nope.. its still route about in a circle.. so u see?? if you want to stay in that circle.. the question that you are going to ask yourself would be the same everytime you are trap... so if i ask myself when is the best time to let go?? the easier answer would be "when i know that I can walk out of the circle." or maybe "when i know that i WANT to walk out of the circle."

i've read somewhere before.. "No one is required or should forget anyone totally. The best way to forget and move on is to remember the memories that you have and hold on to them deep inside your heart, once in a while take out and reminisence about them. That is sufficient to forget a person already. What matters or not is not whether you have already forgot them, what matters that is that that person have a place in ur heart even its just a tiny little place and will always be."

babyfen woke up at 4:39 PM

blame me if you want..

these few days.. nothing much.. still considering alot about my future and wat i want to achieve few years down the road.. and i think i still haven reach any decision yet.. and slacking like crazy these few days.. WTH right...

watched Pirates of The Carribean At World's End le.. quite nice... stay after the long long long credits finish if u want to... but dun scold me if u dun like it.. so for short its called POTC.. when my bro msged me i thought where he going sia.. smart of me to realise that... and told him to stay after the credits.. and so he's back already.. but he says sucks like.. wait so long... for "nothing" sia...

so next show on the list is Shrek 3 and Transformer which baby is going to watch... oh ya..one more.. Fantastic Four.. i've heard that last year just do or few years back just do... but i didn't watch.. not very fancy about it..

so my room's a mess now... heard on the radio commenting about a guy's room would always be messy and they dont like cleanliness... well... so baby commented to me "you must be a guy".. and he continues on.. " i think you're a guy..'' =.=" right???

so i think these few days baby must be trying hard to please me.. its not his fault cos he totally done nothing wrong... i'm the one who's showing dififcult behaviour these few days.. probably PMS or students ba... didn't want to complain too much to him too.. cos i think he must be sick of my complains about my students... so yesterday i think he was so "angry" that he declared that I'M THE QUEEN... so funny lor.. he and his weird weird ideas.. but kind of cute.. but i didn't really appreciate it much cos i also dun want him to feel that i'm bullying him or wat... but funny thing is that.. when he doesn't listen to me then i would say loudly "I"M THE QUEEN HOR.." and he will listen liao.. so funny lor.. LOVE ME LOTS~!~!~!!~ that's how i love him so... (mushy*******)

so some day i shall declare HE's THE KING.. and so everything i do.. i listen to him... but i think this day would not be here soon... or maybe not forever.. who knows... heheee

babyfen woke up at 12:06 AM

accident

was on my way home just now and saw a terrible accident... didn't managed to get close to find out wat really happen.. but was stopping at the traffic light for a very long time.. so managed to see what happen...

the accident already happend when i was there.. its a very terrible accident.. i saw a taxi at the zebra crossing and the taxi was terribly crashed in one corner.. i thought its like normal accident where they just la ga another car.. but i see no other car and no other bike.. instead i saw two ppl standing there and one uncle sitting by the curb in front of his cab facing his down on his laps... and so thought maybe the taxi la ga too big force so the uncle not feeling well cos the corner that was badly crashed is at the driver side.. but the next thing i saw next was very disturbing and extremely shocking... THERE WAS A PERSON LYING ON THE FLOOR OF THE ZEBRA CROSSING.... i was like....OMG~!~!~!!!!!!!!! i assume that is knocked down the passerby when they are crossing the zebra crossing.. think the lights there not very good and i think the taxi driver is driving very fast so knock down ppl... shit la... and the next i saw was the uncle stood up feeling devasted and walking over to the two other ppl standing (one guy one lady) and keep on apologiziing... how i know?? cos the uncle was putting his hand up like saying sorry to that guy... it was like... at that moment i felt like crying and was driving.. so my heart was very heavy la... sad sad sad.... i think they are waiting for ambulance to come... but it's realli sad.. wonder whether the person ok or not... hate taxi drivers to the core.~!~!!!!!!!

and the worst thing is that... as i continued on driving.. i saw two taxi reckless driving patterns.. it's like.. the moment i saw it.. i was cursing those drivers... stupid them....

heavy heart now.. hope that person is fine...

babyfen woke up at 11:50 PM

someone who knows..

i'm realli glad that i have someone who knows me... these are things that make me realise it even more today..

1. he knows that i get angry easily so he tends to be more understanding.
2. he knows that i get tired easily so he always ask me to sleep whenever i can
3. he knows that i get stress easily over students so he always ask me to hack care
4. he knows that i like to sit around after reaching home before i bathe so he allows me to.
5. he knows that i like to watch TV when i reached home so he will always pass me the controller
6. he knows that i like to surf "newspaper" when i on my/his computer so he will let me use first
7. he knows that when i get a new waterbottle i will only use it for a while and leave it one side and he's damn right about it ^^v
8. he knows that my computer will soon be spoiled becos i always surf useless website but he always offer to help
9. he knows that i'm complaining about someone he will only listen and acts like he dun like that person too..
10. he knows that after all these years.. i still love him very much.. (or does he??)

heheee... well ppl who read this blog already knows who is it le la... so why make me spell it out?? hehee.. good night everyone..

babyfen woke up at 12:42 AM

its been a while..

since a few days i've blogged.. quite a few things to take care of these few days... sianz.. busy and rescheduling classes always make me very tired..

yesterday luckily only one class.. then went over to Kallan Mac Carpark to meet up with the EVC ppl.. quite ok la.. talked a bit to the ppl.. then drove over to Turf City carpark in wait for 300 opel cars ppl.. hahahaa.. but in the end around 20 cars there only..they should have come over to Kallang lor... at least not so bad.. no need to travel here and there.. and Turf City there no place to sit one.. must keep on standing.. then after that went over to IMM and get clothes for baby.. heheee.. bought him a new shirt at $3 only. FOX one somemore.. cos i got voucher ma.. so went over to buy lor... then he got himself a new pair of slippers.. nice nice.. but like tat went out yesterday we each spend around $50.. sianz... want to save money but always ends up spending even more...

so after shopping went to Hong KOng Cafe to eat again.. the things are nice but too bad got service and GST charge and the food quite ex la.. but i think we are getting smaller appetite now cos can't finish the food.. waste food again.. sianz... next time just order one plate and eat.. not full then order another plate.. so plate by plate can gauge our stomach better..

oh ya... My birthday is coming in June and i'll be out of SIngapore again.. heheehe... going with EVC to malaysia again. this time to Bukit Merah Laketown Resort.. quite nice.. and we've paid for it.. and we are the first one paying . June 16 ~ June 18.. will be celebrating my birthday on the way there and very qiao got another lady also same birthday as me.. hehee... so got two birthday girls...

going to watch Sneak Preview of Pirates this wed.. heheehe.. going with baby, sks and sky.. its been long and we are going to the Cathay and watch.. hope it will be nice.. very long show sia... 2 hours plus.. dunno is it becos these few days.. want to attrach ppl and watch so do long long show.. baby wanted to go watch at GOld Class sia.. rich sia he nowadays... so i should i say..feeling rich..hehehee..

gotta go practice my piano liao.. if not kena scolding again..

babyfen woke up at 12:57 PM

ultraman stuff again..

guess wat.. i was surfing net yesterday for some online shopping.. but didn't buy la.. looking for some nice dresses only... then i went on to search for ultraman stuff.. then i realise that i have not give up on him... i was like OMG..~!~! i want to buy all these things.. found a few things that i think i will consider to buy.. hahhaa.. anyone want to sponsor for my birthday.. pls let me know o... then i would not have duplicate.. heheee..


below is a sofa that's wat the seller says la.. but i dun think can sit la.. emailed the person to ask le.. if it suits me.. i will buy.. hahhaa

Below is a stamp collection from bangkok i think.. quite nice... cos its those cute ultraman i like.. pls dun give me any those grey colour like those other boys like one.. i DUN LIKE THEM~~!! hehehee... but kind of ex la.. this whole thing cost like $25... but comes to think of it hor.. maybe buy le then frame it up and hang it up.. i think it will be VERY NICE!~~!~!

This is a photo album.. so nice lor.. but the things is that this is found on Hong Kong Yahoo Auctions website.. so i told baby it would be like tons og ultraman stuff buying if i go Hong Kong next time... heheee..



This is the clip.. same thing from Hong Kong website.. so sad...

This set of pen comes from Hong Kong again.. nice sia..

bedsheets~!~! cool sia... nice looking bedsheets.. but doesn't comes with comforter.. i think i get the comforter i already very happy.. and guess wat.. it cost like US $40.. dunno how to convert.. lazy to convert also..tonight then ask baby how much it will cost...

another design.. nice la... still got wo.. two more but i never save it down..

comes to think of it.. i know why couple always quarrel alot before wedding and over wedding preparation... cos both of them wants the best of everything for the other half.. and then will start to rule the other person's decision... so either one let the other win.. if not it will ends up very terribly wrong...



watever it is.. if a couple is willing to spend the rest of their life together.. i believe having faith and good communication is the least that they should have... planning ahead is never easy.. it takes years to build a good foundations but just days to break it.. everything should be brought across to each other nicely or should i say properly.. so no one would feel bad about anything or watever so...

babyfen woke up at 11:41 AM

computer crashed le.

well.. my computer is crashed.. now i depend on my laptop only... sianz.. all my photos and work inside.. never back up cos never expect it crash one.. sad la... hoping for baby to come by when he free to take a look whether can retrieve those things i want or not..

think its just not my luck la... not winning the thingy and computer crash and no more money to spend liao... and SCV box spoil... sianz..

changed my skin again... but still need my didi help me see whether can change the font or not.. dun like the settings.. have tried making it.. but tired liao.. so dun intend to make..

so this week for the radio show.. its going to Hong Kong.. haven been trying... think wont be taking part... just be it la... earn more money la.. then go ourselves... waiting to go disney land..

babyfen woke up at 12:39 PM

never ending spending..

i think i would take quite a while to recover my spending habits la.. somemore june here le wo.. think july then will recover...


no classes today till 9pm.. actually got one my own class.. but never practice so canceled the lesson with teacher... think she must be not very happy about it.. but rather then i go there and anger her even more right??? heehee..


after morning classes went over northpoint to settle some things.. bought things for baby and his relative.. cos its her birthday so we thought of buying something for her... nice leh.. i also want to buy for myself one.. but hor... think think dun think my family would want that in the living room la...

that's the phone i got for her.. nice nice nice..`!~!~!~!~!




so yesterday was mother's day.. no pictures to dedicate to my mom but i realli thank her alot from my heart.. though i know i'm not a very good daughter...so yesterday my didi went on one mission while i went on the other one.. his is to find laptop bags for us both.. he got a laptop now.. we are like twins la.. we got the same bag in different colours.. and now we have the same laptop in different model.. and we got same handphone.. we now have same laptop bag in different design.. we are going to exchange and use the bags.. mine is mickey mouse one... nice wo.. i like!~!~!~! his is circle pattern one.. nice too~!~! heehe.. but i think i will have very little chance of bringing it around la..lazy to bring around too... oh ya.. my mission was to get present for mom... went causeway point to get... sia la... pack like siao lor.. just to get a parking lot it took me like half an hour.. sianz sia.. luckily got ppl just nice exiting if not i think i will spend like 1 hour looking for a lot.. so went metro to get the bag. wanted to settle for bonia one.. but little i know... its was damn EXPENSIVE la.... msged my didi to update my mission progress... he was shocked too.. so settled for something not so ex... not too bad la... got one nice looking one. but i think its still kind of small for my mom... she is like me la..need a bit bigger bag.. too many things to carry around...

so here's my mickey mouse bag.


and here's mom new bag..



finally got a frame for my graduation photos...still haven settled er ge's photos yet.. its like there for almost a month liao.. think he must be angry or wat so ever... will try to settle this week.. strange that the ppl from the photo shop never try to contact us to hurry return the photos.. think they also hack care hack care since we already paid for some money.. ppl are like that one la.. need to pay money.. then they will find u by hook or by crook...




just one sad news though.. i didn't win the radio contest.. some other ppl won.. so sad. there goes my Bali trip... worth like $1000++ leh the package... sianz.... wat's urs will be urs la hor... not urs.. so and ask also no use one...

dad and mom going to genting for the drive up trip with like 300+ cars.. very onz sia they all.. and they are going on my birthday.... eh.. one day before my birthday la.. hahaaha... wonder what should i buy for my birthday.. oh ya.. handphone.. i want to change handphone.. kind of sick of my phone.. and guess wat.. my didi is aiming for the same phone with me.. ahahah... twins la hor...

babyfen woke up at 1:42 PM

heartache for my piano

tuner just finish tuning my piano.. well.. its ex lor... $70 for this person... need to pay for a string that broke during tuning.. well.. baby wanted me to call him after the tuner tune the piano and ask why we have to pay for the string since its during her tunning that the string broke... aiya.. watever la...

sianz la... supposedly got class in the afternoon one.. now its canceled so my next class is like 5.30pm..yaya i know still got alot of time to do alot of things.. but i dunno wat to do sia.. should i practice. should i do my work. should i prepare my work.. too many things to do le... sianz.... tml will be quite packed... so today rest more.. ahahahaa...

one step into my relationship.. cos we step out to do something that would bring better fortune in the future..

babyfen woke up at 12:37 PM

lost of touch..

just came back from poly friends gathering.. didn't bring camera along..so didn't take any pictures... hahaa.. but Rosz did.. maybe next time then get from him or wat..

i think i have lost the communication skills part.. i was feeling very tired and kind of bored by the topics that talk... dun realli understand their language liao.. think i'm too into my own world of students and baby liao.. put me with another teacher.. we can talk non stop... but its good to go out with them once in a while to revive back some skills la... if not next time i realli dunno how to interact with ppl not my profession...

well on the other side.. 883 called me again.. ahhaaha.. cos i SMS again for the radio game and this time i saved their number and when they called i did say the password... good la.. this friday shall see... maybe i get a chance to go Bali after all.. baby said.. when chance came knocking on your door and you didn't answer that's it... and here's my 2nd chance.. hahaha... hoping for the best sia..

today is shiok la.. no classess at all.. cos nowadays exam period so everyone cancelling class.. actually i dun mind la.. cos go there they never practice also sianz wat... just that i'm broke and no money liao... sianz... i think my bank going to be $000.00 soon.... but now like that.. june have to work extra hard.. got students taking exam.. i think around 4.. but still very stress....hopefully they can do well... and i shall teach well tooo.....

gtg sleep le.. tml got tuner coming to tune my piano and i haven packed my piano nice nice for her yet.. have to wake up early tml liao...

i think i need to travel without car sometimes.. it helps me to lose weight..since my bag always so heavy....

babyfen woke up at 12:06 AM

SIANZ~!~!~

883 Jia FM called me this afternoon cos i SMS them for this chance to go to BALI for two ppl..and i blew it big time... i forgot that i actually SMS them... so when i answered the call i did not say the password... shit sia... wasted sia. so now..i'm going to try to bring FM radio wherever I go so that i make sure i get another chance again.. baby say its monday only so can try again.. hopefully la.... ARGH~!~!~ so angry with myself... should not have called weihao that time and should have saved the telephone number of 883.... realli regretted missing that chance sia... and there i was telling baby that i had already remembered the password till siao liao... "883 Jia FM WTS Gui Bin Lu Yun Dai Wo Qu Lu You"... sianz sia... i will be better prepared next time but the problem is whether i would that chance again....

hope i would have better luck next time but the thing is.. whether the chance will comes by again.. realli it shows.. "Whatever is yours it will be yours...."

babyfen woke up at 8:57 PM

things to remember

- Remember to continue running / jogging / exercising

- Prepare grade 8 practical and 6 theory 7 theory revision class for friday 6pm
--->Tank Zhuan Shu Tian Shi
---> Forbidden love

-Prepare grade 8 practical (buy the book literature) and grade 8 Trio Sonata & chords for friday 4pm

- Prepare grade 8 theory for wednesday night 8.15pm

- Prepare grade 8 practial for sunday (buy the book literature)

- Prepare aural for students (all)

- Spiderman pencil box and stationary

hmm.. that's all i can remember for now.. i think realli memory failing me liao... till next time i blog ba

babyfen woke up at 10:28 PM

i'm back..

came back from malaysia trip.. very tired.. still haven get back my sleep yet.... baby posted a few photos at his blog.. next time go his house then take make the video thingy... becos i dun have much photos at my phone.. heee...


went there for a very long journey.. i feels very bad for not helping baby to drive but i think if i helped him then i think he will be like not be able to sleep.. cos i overtake cars very slow... but i did help by singing song for him to hear... like Twinkle Twinkle Little Star... and ABC... luckily he managed to keep awake by not sleeeping while driving.. hehee...


reached Trengganu Primula Beach Resort ataround after 14 hours of drive.. then nothing much to do.. cos everyone very tired.. woke up quite late the next day only to found out that we can't go Redang.. so wasted sia... hope to go there again one.. cos that time didn't managed to go the the Mo Mo Tea beach.. this time also.. too bad la... so be it lor...


made alot of new friends... good trip i guess just that its very tiring... some photos in my handphone...


we went to take a boat ride to the nature park.. nice ride sia... the waves bigbig one... nice sia.. the wind wind also very big.. nice too...

babyfen woke up at 10:37 PM

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